Sugarcoat

I've seen all of you go
Down this bumpy road
None of us had foreseen
This wouldn't have a sugarcoat

My future

From lonely struggle to inspiring journey
I wanna go beyond everything that's happening to me
I wanna be great and see the big picture
Is this my time to shine, is this my future?

My pledge

Next year I want everything to be different
I want to be my best friend again
Have values lasting longer than a one night stand

But this is not my first vow or pledge
I wasn't raised to live on the edge
But when I am drunk I always tend to forget

I was raised to be well-mannered
Striving and achieving mattered
I earned everyone's respect for what I did

I worked hard, people said I was smart
Now I am found in every men's bed with an empty heart
My moral history is totally off guard

I must stand up again, raise my fist
Be who I used to be on every A-list
And regain those morals and values my life has missed

Forever friends

I was so happy you said it
Finally after all those years you get it

Finally I've earned that place in your life
The same place I gave you in mine

You said: "I've known you for over 24 years
I don't want to lose this thing we have here

Here in my heart, here in my mind
I know I've let you down sometimes

I just hope you can forgive me and we can move on"
And so I will forgive you for everything you've done

And everything you will ever do
Cause I am your best friend and I love you

I've loved you for 24 years and many more to come
We make mistakes but our friendship will always carry on

Love gone by

I wake up wondering what I've done
I wanna know where I belong
Like I need a man's love to be someone

I humiliate myself over and over again
I won't find the love I need during weekends
Where I feel cool but it's play pretend

I won't win any respect between your sheets
Feeding your and my temporary needs
With alcohol and coke in between

I miss loving him
I miss knowing what to do
I miss being me and you

Then you came by for coffee
I felt your love looking at me
I heard your hope and felt your maybes

You gave me a hug and lifted me up
I wish my feelings would have never stopped
Cause you love me for me no matter what

Discern

Is there a reason why things are happening to me?
Must I first get to my lowest low before I get to be happy?
Must I be buried with self loath and covered in dirt?
Must I be lonely and miserable and long term hurt?

The same things keep happening to me
Is life trying to tell me something I need to learn?
Or is it cause sometimes it's just not my turn?
Or is it something I can't discern?

The last thought

I feel a little sad
You stole the last thought I had
The last bit of hope
The last cloud I was on
Now it's really me on my own

Compassion

Compassion
Makes it hard to teach someone a lesson
You don't want to tell them the truth
If you understand exactly what they do

You know what they're going through
But sometimes you need to be hard
Save them by telling the awful truth
Before they fall apart

But it also works the other way around
When life hits you very hard
And you hope compassion can be found
To mend your broken heart

And then you hurt me by accident
I want to blame you and be mad
But at the same time I understand
Cause I've also made mistakes like that

When you have no notion
You judge and call someone sentimental
Until you experience the same emotion
You understand you've been too judgemental

I had to learn a little lesson
When I choose my words less carefully
They always get back to me
That's how I got compassion

For my lonely girls

The look on your face says you've had enough
Are you gonna die with a past
In which you've known great love
But it didn't last

And you try hard everytime
Is this gonna be the man for life?
Who will be your partner in crime?
Who wants you to be his wife?

After half a year it's all gone
You're left to your own device
Wondering where you went wrong
Cause you tried so many times

Why do I want to know why?

I wanna get me
I wanna get why I react the way I react
Know why I see the things I see
Know why I feel the way I feel

I wanna get you
I wanna get why you react the way you react
Know why you do the things you do
Know why you feel the way you feel

Why do I always want to know why?
Am I busy with figuring out life
As it's passing me by?
What if tomorrow is now?

Back in time

If I could go back in time
I would stay in 2005
When my love for you was still alive

Your love for me hasn't changed
You still accept every mistake I make
You still think I'm flawless after all the heartache

Tough people

Life is hard when you lack the will
You gain twice the weight you lost
You don’t feel like paying bills
Debt collection agency, extra costs

You got pregnant by accident
But you knew you were playing with fire
You cheat on your boyfriend
Cause it’s easier to be a liar

You take driving lessons and quit again
You take lessons at a drama club
Life can be hard every now and then
But you can’t just always give it up

You go to court for a fine
It takes you six years to graduate
I want to buy you a spine
For change, it’s never too late

What makes people proud?
When they stand up for something
They refuse to take the easy way out
And reach a higher level of being

You need to kick your own ass
I hate to do it for you
Tough times don’t last
Tough people do

Fool me

I set my own traps and I fall for them
It's called plain stupid and play pretend
I've been around your block before
I won't find what I'm looking for
I know you're no good for me
You make me do things I wouldn't normally

But sometimes it's just nice to feel warmth
To just sleep tight in someone's arms
Even though it's got nothing to do with loving
Cause you mostly bring about self-loathing
I let you fill my heart with imaginary love
I let you give me something to dream of

Do I have to search to find?
Or should I just stumble upon things in life?
Should I believe in serendipity?
Does fate still have something in store for me?
How deep must I fall before I get to climb?
How lonely must I be before sunshine?

Judgement

Because of all I've done
I'm past the point where I can judge anyone

You just do what you do
I won't frown upon you

Whatever my point of view or perception
Sometimes I don't have an opinion

I've been up and down too much
I've lost my will and right to judge

So you just do what you do
I won't look down on you

I've embarrased myself, been through shit
I've shamed myself more than I'd like to admit

You look at me and expect judgement
But I always try to understand

Cause I make the same mistakes every now and then
I always remember in the end we're all human

When

Will I ever know, will I ever feel
What I see in the movies
What I see on TV

Do I still believe, believe it's real
Or have we overcome this
And it seizes to exist

Does it have to become a great ordeal
For I am ready for everything
I am so tired of waiting

For a mother

Asleep, asleep, I fall asleep
I'm never waking up
I wish I could accept this
But I think I'm giving up

There's so much love and beauty
There's so much to live for
I don't want you to see me
With all the pain I have to endure

There's so much to digest
I feel your love, I see you care
But my body wants to rest
For all the things it cannot bear

Asleep, asleep, I fall asleep
I know now, I am aware
Tomorrow I won't be
I will no longer be there

Over

Einde bereikt, maar niet de bestemming
Een in dwaling geëindigde vlucht
De reis had vol moed aangevangen
Maar de woorden bleven hangen in de lucht

Mystery

The moment I met you
I had a lifetime to forget you
But how do I put you behind me
With only the blind to guide me?

So many things remain unresolved
I can't live with this at all
Cause everything's a mystery
Why is it not you and me?

Tower of strength

It was easy, it felt warm and nice
I can still go there when I close my eyes
Always secure, a great deal of comfort
Always sure, always support
A shoulder to lean on, a tower of strength
Someone going to great lenghts
I could say whatever I thought
You'd still love me no matter what

Never scared of what's coming due
I really miss loving you

I have to rely on myself
No one there for help
Yes I have friends and family
But will anyone ever love me, the way you loved me?

Patience

I've played a game unlawfully
With dubious integrity
No reason for you to stick with me

I know that smile, I see big eyes
You wonder about my insides
You wonder if you can abide

I am not that bad, I'm just clumsy
I can't expect you to deal with me
I can't demand strenghth and resiliency

Patience is all that I need

Forgive me

I wear my heart upon my sleeve
My feelings are open for everyone to see
I trust my intuition judges people rightfully
And that I'll survive if someone hurts me

You have to learn you pant a seed
If you always act so precautiously
People won't understand you easily
They will question your sincerity

It'll become a self-fulfilling prophecy
What you fear will become reality
If you hold back, people will approach you carefully
And wonder if you're trustworthy

If you don't show your true intent
People will think you're cold and distant
Doubt if you wanna be their friend
Or if you're already making an escape plan

So if you seek predictability
Knowing all that people hide secretly
Open up to some and you will see
We're all human with flaws and hopes and dreams

And trust yourself that you'll survive
If someone doesn't act like you had in mind
You can always ask why they are unkind
And you'll learn so much in time

True friendship is bone deep
It hurts sometimes but that's what it needs
Cause you reap what you sow
Trust that what you give you will also receive
Maybe not now but someday you'll see
I will forgive you anything if you forgive me

Flaws

You say it's forever broken
I can't be more sorry than I am
I can only do the best I can
But after that it's up to you to trust me again

I can crawl on my knees
Cry, beg and pleed
But all I've got is my sincerity
What else do you need?

Did you ever really trust me?
You've always had second thoughts
You already think I'm guilty
Even when I am not

I will never have a clean slate
That doesn't have to mean a thing because
Friendship can go from good to great
If you embrace each others flaws

Trustworthy

I always manage to be that girl
I seem so cool
You wanna be my friend
We set up some rules
But I do as I please in the end

I made this mess
Now I have to live with it
I can't turn back time
I can't undo the things I did

I always manage to be that girl
I pretend I care about you
But then I let you down
And I never meant to
Cause when I say I love you it's true

I made this mess
And you have to live with me
Trust, appointments we made
Why did I let them fade?

I always manage to be that girl
That girl with a twist
I want you to trust me
And then I lie a little bit
I have to make myself trustworthy

Dial M for Me

You can't say I haven't tried
I don't just put 24 years aside
But for you out of sight is out of mind
You've let me down a thousand times
But this is where I draw the line
You're no longer a true friend of mine

You'll notice now that you're back home
After a while you'll feel alone
Everyone will see how vainly you roam
And then you'll notice you've got no one

And I've heard you blame me too
About a lot of things I never knew
Cause you don't talk like I do
But people who don't talk, always lose

"Ex"cidently

You notice when I cry myself asleep quietly
Cause you know everything about me
When I'm without make-up you say I'm sexy
You always know exactly what I need

I felt your love and wanted to know
If we still had a chance at growing old
But I was acting like a wolf in sheep's clothes
I let you in and misled us both

You're so sweet, your love so pure
You make me feel very safe and secure
Cause you're so smart and mature
You're heading for a decent future

You embrace my thoughts, even when they're wrong
You accept my words, all my slips of the tongue
I can totally be me, cause you're so strong
You never take the lead, but you'll always carry on

And I want so bad for you to be the man
There ain't a thing you don't understand
You will always be my best friend
But I will never fall in love with you again

I feel like I'm the wolf in disguise
I swallowed you whole, cause you're so nice
But we should both go on with our lives
Cause I don't wanna be the girl who broke your heart twice

E Talking

From all the men you were the worst
You don't know half you wish you could reverse
Sometimes you realize, you think you care
But you don't care enough to change a hair
Would you change if you knew the truth?
But whatever I say, it never rings through
You sleep tight in your nice home
The sunshine in your backyard doesn't know
I was locked in your bed all alone
I was a prisoner of words you owned
You call love a thing for fairy tales
You don't see, you built your own jail
And I will know great love someday
And then your heart still remains astray

Rockstar

You're normal, that's what makes you cool
I hope fame with never get to you like it can do

My best friend (1987-1997)

I've known you since you were a little lid
We used to do everything together
Everything you did, I did,
But now you think your boyfriend is better

Now I'm not important anymore
How could this be?
I'm just the girl who lives nextdoor
Have you forgotten about me?

And yes, maybe I'm jealous
I'm just afraid of losing a friend
Something has come between us
I don't want our friendship to end

Please cut me some slack
We go way back
Like I don't feel things like that
But you can't blame me for losing track

I've always been around
No matter what your life was about
When a new boyfriend was bound
I was still waiting for you to come back down

Years from now
You can still touch me somehow
I find myself waiting again
Waiting for you to say I am still you best friend

Wake without you

Do I miss you or just the thought of being in your arms?
Is it really you or just feeling safe and warm?
I don't wanna get stuck in this
But don't let me out of your kiss
If I could go back in time
To one of those moments you were still mine
Cause I don't wanna wake without you
I want to stay in this dream

Paper, rock, scissors

What if the paper beats the scissors?
What if the rock beats the paper?
You don't deserve to have one of my thoughts
You don't deserve her

What if I'm winning from losing?
I shouldn't care about what you deserve or not
I should be stronger and overcome this thing
And let the scissors beat the rock

Material

You've made a memory with me
I'm not yet sure of the category
I don't feel like it was me
I felt wanted, but also slutty
I wanted your body
You were funny and friendly
But you dropped a bomb on me
Your truth came out so suddenly
You have a girl and wanted one thing only
Like I would have considered the possibility
Of you being boyfriend material for me

Rebound girl

If there was one thing I could erase
It would be your inhumanity
That night, those words, alone in bed at your place
Those thoughts shouldn't belong to me
You've forgotten all that you've said
You put things in my head I don't deserve
You have no idea about any of that
You don't remember the torture
I cry, but I have no regrets
You aren't one of my best memories
I never think "what if we never met?"
But you shattered me to pieces
Maybe you were right in the end
You and I weren't meant te be a couple
I don't even want to be friends
I don't want you to see me struggle
Sometimes my thoughts still get caught in this twirl
You've found someone else to make you happy
I don't like to be called the rebound girl
It was real to me

De eenzaamheid

Je was er wel, maar nooit genoeg
Nooit op de manier die ik eigenlijk vroeg
Je leerde mij al op jonge leeftijd
De daadwerkelijke betekenis van eenzaamheid
Je kan alleen maar praten over dat ik jou niet begrijp
Is het zo moeilijk om gewoon te houden van mij?

Chemical

Can't you see
You're the difference to me
You're the right chemical,
Right chemical baby.

Some might say there's other fish in the sea
But you're the right chemical,
right chemical, to me

Meus Amicus

Nu voelt het nog als gisteren
Straks is het eeuwen geleden
Als je dan nog eens kijkt naar hem
Zie je hoe hij echt is, snel tevreden

Wees realistisch, het had niet gewerkt
Hij biedt geen uidaging op psychologisch vlak
Uiteindelijk ben jij als je wilt, veel te sterk
En had je hem helemaal ingepakt

Dromen, durven, denken, doen
Luctor et Emergo: wat jij bent
Nil volentibus arduum
Allen hem geheel onbekend

Lass ihn gehen
Er is Vergangenheit
Dann kannst du sehen:
Das Paradies ist ihn viel zu weit

Une femme parfaite à nos yeux
Nos yeux tant amoureux
On était à la recherche d'amour
Et enfin elle est là chaque jour

So now I have to see
This ain't you and me
My friends all tell me to let go
Luctor et Emergo

The devil's own

Can't wait for this feeling to stop
First you took me to the top
Then you let me drop

So the devil would wish
You were one of his
He couldn't do it as good as this

Can't wait for this feeling to stop
First you screwed me nice
Then you screwed me up

So the devil would want
You as his companion
He couldn't do it like you can

Krullen

Als ze vragen hoe het gaat zeg ik "Gewoon"
Ik doe net alsof het gaat zoals het gaat
Wanneer word ik wakker uit deze zware, nare droom?
En staar ik niet meer naar alle mannen met krullen op straat?

En jouw leven gaat door alsof ik nooit bestond
Je hebt supersnel alweer een nieuw meisje
Huppel je nu in haar huiskamer rond?
Stond zij ook zo hoog op je verlanglijstje?

En elke keer als ik een man met krullen zie
En de krullen draaien om, dan ben jij het niet
En geloof me dat ik hard probeer om je uit mij te bannen
Maar ik ben nog steeds op zoek naar jou in alle mannen

En jouw leven gaat door alsof het nooit is gebeurd
Waarom zou je nog om mij geven, ik mankeer toch niets?
Ik zit lachend in de kroeg, vrienden genoeg, niet getreurd!
Maar ik ben nog steeds verliefd

Ik lijk wel een patiënt
Sinds jij niet meer op mij bent
Een junk die nooit ontwent
Ik doe zo mijn best om je niet te bellen elk weekend

Ik kan niet tegen dit gevoel op
Ik ken je nummer uit m'n kop
En ieder smsje dat je zond
Zwerft nog letterlijk in mijn hoofd rond

En iedereen zegt, ergens wel terecht:
Die jongen komt zichzelf nog wel tegen
Hij heeft geen ruggegraat, kent geen gevecht
Met hem is het leuk voor even, niet voor het leven

Hij heeft een lekker lichaam en een mooie lach
Hij heeft een mooi huis met alles erop en eraan
Maar dat ben je na een paar jaar ook wel weer zat
Dus waar kan zo'n relatie dan uit bestaan?

En iedereen zegt, ergens wel terecht:
Zoals zij aan kwam waaien, waait ze ook wel weer weg
Hij denkt te weinig na over wat hij doet
Straks met tegenspoed, weet hij niet wat hij doen moet

Weet je nog dat je zei dat het altijd saai wordt na een jaar of drie?
En dat ik zei dat ik nog in sprookjes geloof
Dat komt omdat ik wil vechten voor een relatie
Omdat ik alles eruit haal en me uitsloof

Ik denk dat jou die instelling ontbeert
Zij wordt vast de volgende negen jaar
Dat zijn van die dingen die jij nooit leert
Waarom denk ik dan nog zoveel over jou na?

Je weet niet meer wat je die avond zei
Toen je het keihard en lullig uitmaakte met mij
Je brak niet alleen mijn hart, je brak mij geheel
Ik weet alles nog letterlijk, elk woord één teveel

Maar ik zie jou nog steeds overal
Nu het niet zo heeft mogen zijn
Een lichaam waar ik nog lang over dromen zal
Met je mooie ogen waar ik langzaam in verdwijn

Ik zie je in het donker en in het licht
Ik zie je met en zonder gezicht
Ik zie je met je kleren uit en met je kleren aan
Nadat je mij alleen van dat feestje weg liet gaan

Er zijn van die momenten dat ik denk dat het gaat slijten
Maar dan juich ik eigenlijk te vroeg
Ik ben weer terug bij af als ik één seconde te lang naar je sta te kijken
In de supermarkt, op het strand of in de kroeg

Ik word nagefloten en aangestaard
Ik zit allerminst om aandacht verlegen
Jij bent niet de laatste man op aard
Maar toch: overal kom ik je tegen

Op elke straat, in elke kroeg, in elke hoek
Op elk feestje, in elke liedje, film of boek
Ruik ik jouw geur, zie ik je spijkerbroek
Met jouw ideale kontje dat ik overal zoek

In elke nacht en elke dag
Hoor ik je stem, zie ik je lach
Als iemand snel voorbij fietst, denk ik dat ik je zag
Nu ik niet meer verliefd op je zijn mag

Ik vind jou nog steeds een groot avontuur
Ik hoop zo dat dit niet lang meer duurt
Je nieuwe vriendin is notabene mijn collega
Ik vecht om het over te laten gaan maar ja,

Bij elke wit busje dat ik passeer
Ga ik rechtop lopen en gooi ik mijn haar naar achter
Op een dag doet het vast niet meer zeer
Daar moet ik dan maar op wachten

Dark nights

It's dark outside
Some streetlights are out
The moon shines
But it's hiding behind the clouds
I'm not like you
I don't fall in love for a month or two
I'm like a swan
When I fall for someone
It could be my whole life through

And everytime I see broad shoulders and blond hair
I have to stop and stare
And everytime I see someone with curls
I just hope that it's you when they turn

The cruelest thing you could ever do
Was making me fall in love with you
You were like drugs, after the big rush
Came an ever bigger crush
You made me feel like I was on your wishlist
And then you dumped me like this
The next girl came like a slap on the wrist
It went so fast I still cannot believe it

It's so unfair
I still see you everywhere
Every white van makes me stop and stare
But you don't care

It's dark inside
My lights are out
No matter how hard the moon shines
My heart is stuck in the clouds
I'm like a swan
I don't just fall in love with everyone
I'm not like you
When push comes to shove
I fight for love
My whole life through

Spinal cord

I've known it for weeks, but seen with my own eyes
You were with her last night
I promised myself I wouldn't let you get to me
You've made me lose my pride

You don't just break me down and get to live
You don't just dump me in a way that would make the devil proud
Without it getting to you a little bit
And the next girl is already on your cloud

Be honest to yourself, who is she?
Will she last a year or nine?
Or is this a crush thing and is she the next me?
You don't fight for things cause you lack a spine

You told me you don't believe in fairytales
You enjoy the sex for a year or three
Then things will get boring as always
Even if it would have been with me

What if she'll get bored?
She speaks more languages than you'll ever do
What if she notices your lack of a spinal cord?
Will she still be in love with you?

You've never learned to fight for anything
You'll never get anywhere if you give up so easily
Go ahead smile, think you're happy and have your next fling
I guess I should just be happy that girl isn't me

Shadow of a doubt

Cast the shadow of a doubt
So many things to figure out
Do you want to know the truth?
Cause then you'll have to live by the rule
That denial isn't a river in Egypt
You have to make something of it
For you ignorance is bliss
So you just live

Out of your league

Sometimes I still don't understand
Why you can't be my boyfriend
You should be so happy with me
I am far more than out of your league
I am more funny, more intelligent
I have seen more of this world than you can imagine or understand
I know more than you can bear
I wonder if you have anything to adhere
Do you go through life without a purpose?
I see you always having fun, but what's underneath the surface?
I wonder if there's something underneath
Or have you always neglected your feelings entirely?
You were never really in love with me
It was cool cause it was new to you, probably
I can cook and make love cause I understand sex
You don't deserve to call me your ex

Nine lives

Remember that time in Russia?
The impressive subway 90 meter below
Remember back in Jamaica?
Braided hair and Bob Marley to go
We saw places before they became touristic
From Tunis to Egypt, from Guatemala to Mexico
You took me everywhere
Elementary school, I've barely been there

Remember our apartment?
I have one picture of us there
I had a plan, you were the man
We were living in the middle of nowhere
Too many things you didn't understand
Too many times you didn't care
For two years I was hooked
But then I used my eyes and really looked

Your Swedish friend was here in 2005
We were hanging out at the Flying pig daily
I recall you were my life
Students having fun, everything was so easy
Then came the day we had to fight
I was keeping our relationship together
But with one person fighting it didn't survive
I felt alone and bitter

Things never last
That's why it's called the past
Years from now someone else will represent
This life I now call present
I've got pictures of moments in time
That'll only live in our minds

I've already lived nine lives
I've been everybody's wife
I've been all over the globe
I've felt things before, a lifetime ago
But with you, so many things are new
Are you the last life I have to through?

To all my friends

Nien, whether we're going up or down
We'll always be friends, I'm always around

Mae we've known each other for so long
We only need half a word to know what's going on

Martine, even though we're miles apart
For 24 years and more to come you're always in my heart

Cell you always know how to make me laugh
I will always be thankful for what we have

Martin, we grew up together
We've got so much nice moments to come and so much to remember

Sao-Ying back in high school when you first came around
You were so shy and now the world is your playground

Jess, you're one of my sweetest friends
You're leaving the country, but nothing ends

Nathalie you and me we've got this thing
With cooking foreign food and travelling

Berry we broke up but I didn't lose my friend
We're still hanging out and checking out bands

Jeroen, I've seen you grow into a man
You're a cool guy with a kick ass girlfriend

Vincent we can talk for hours on end
I always stay longer than I should and rearrange my plans

Miles can't separate us
If you wanna go in depth with me, you'll find all of you right underneath my surface
Oh where would I be without all my friends?
I wanna take you all out for a one life stand

Laugh about it

I can't hide my flaws
I'm all out in the open
You see me fall,
You see me crawl
Sometimes I think I'm strong,
Sometimes I doubt it
Someday I'll laugh about it
Someday I'll have a blast about it
Someday my sky is less clouded
Someday I'll laugh about it

Credibility (Back in 2003 for Tim)

I just can't keep coming back whenever I feel lonely
There isn't a better way for losing my credibility
You could never resist and always fell down on your knees
Cause I was still the one in your dreams and fantasies
I've become exactly what I didn't want to be
Crying at you and making a fool of myself repeatedly
I'm lost at sea, I'm living in a fantasy
All that never was will never ever be
I must open my eyes and start to see
Face my life, my fears and the reality
So all I can say is I hope she makes you happy
And I guess in a way she's saving you from me

It won't happen, period

You're so filthy rich and you want me to date your son
I've known him for years and he's just not the one
It won't happen

You've been chasing me forever or so it seems
But you're not the one who occurs in my dreams
It won't happen

On new years eve I was the coolest girl you'd ever met
You had never seen a girl dance like that
It won't happen

We dated and all your friends said we matched perfectly
But you can dream all you want about me
It won't happen

At the bar we had a little thing but you weren't a talented kisser
I'm sorry to say you ain't gonna take me out to dinner
It won't happen

I met you at work and saw your face become all red
I was the sexiest girl you had ever met
It won't happen

When we met you thought I was such a catch
You got so nervous I knew we'd never match
It won't happen

So you can cook better than I do
And you are in need of a chance for proof
It won't happen

So you can tell me all I want to hear:
How funny I am and you always stare
It won't happen

I remember that night in Haarlem
You just begged for my number and goddamned
It won't happen

I just saw you at the bar your names were Bob and Hans
I'm sorry you ain't exactly what I want
It won't happen

Even my silly jokes made you laugh, you were so convinced
You were jumping around when we kissed at the office
It won't happen

You thought everything about me was so great
But I just wasn't ready yet to date
It won't happen

I met you in Amsterdam we had some common interests
You kept on calling me and sending me sms's
I couldn't care less

I've got to known all you guys
And all I can say is you're all not my types
I've seen you all in que for me
I feel flattered but it will never be
I just don't fall in love that easily
I guess I'll just go home alone bored
And get myself off with some internet porn

Physical addiction

We know we're better off trying to be friends
But we make each other sexually confident
One touch, one look and we know
We wanna take off each others clothes
Whether we kiss fast or slow:
We can't take no more, all systems go
We're each others dynamite
When we come together we ignite
If you wanna know the truth
No one makes me come like you
Everytime when I'm bored or alone
I wanna make you scream and moan
I wanna make your body explode
I wanna grab my phone
And give you a booty call

Toen

Ik mis de tijd dat ik dacht:
Jullie hebben de waarheid in pacht
Toen jullie nog op een voetstuk stonden
Dat ik vond dat jullie alles konden
Ik had veel meer rust in mijn kop
Toen ik dacht: zij lossen alles op
Zij kunnen mij altijd redden
Met hun hulp kom ik altijd verder
Het is alweer zo lang geleden
Dat jullie de wereld begrepen
Ik zie jullie ver beneden
Jullie leven in het verleden
Niets is meer zoals toen
Ik moet alles zelf doen
De rollen zijn nu omgedraaid
Ik leg jullie uit hoe de wind waait
Waarom de wolken verdwijnen
Hoe de aarde draait
En wanneer de zon gaat schijnen

Dipje

Ik woon dicht bij zee
Ik heb geen TV
Ik hou van koken en het strand
Ik heb humor en ben bijdehand
Ik huil makkelijk in het openbaar
Soms ben ik een beetje raar
Elke maandag neem ik me voor minder te drinken
Om het weekend daarop er weer in te stinken
Ik heb meer vrienden dan tijd
Ik vind mijzelf best een leuke meid

Waarom gedraag ik mij dan niet zo?
Ik loop met mijn gevoelens te koop
Mijn hart is rijp voor de sloop

Dit is weer zo'n dip waarvan ik morgen denken zal:
Waar maakte ik mij druk om, doe niet zo mal!

Hallo hersenen werk eens mee,
Kater ok, maar dipje: NEE!

Powerless

I wanna change your world
I wanna take away the hurt
But all I've got are words
And I see your mess
And feel so powerless
Cause I wish you the best

I'll lend you my ears
I'll lend you my tears
I'll lend you my hands
I'll be the one who understands
But I can't make amends
I can't make your plans
You've got your life in your own hands

So all I can say is:

I can't make
rain or shine
I'm just your friend
if that's fine
If it's your date
or your family
Cry my shoulders wet
when you need me
I am not god-on-delivery
but fate sure has some plans with me
Whichever relationship we end or start
you'll always be here in my heart
Whatever you do, it's alright
When I see you I always smile inside

The truth about life

It's not that my life is really that hard
But sometimes it sucks having a small house without a yard
I must keep faith I'll get there, it's just a start
I can get bored so quick, you have no idea
Maybe I would have been fed up with you eventually, like you feared
Yet to find the man that can entertain me for more than a year
I wish I was more like you, so easily amused
You can jump around when someone mentions barbecue
But then again you're also easily confused
I wanna have a nice couch that feels like a throne
I wanna have a cat to have warmth at home
I guess I just suck at being alone

When 21 years was old

So many memories, we take them with us where ever we go
Do you remember when we thought 21 years was old?
Do you remember we felt like we owned the world?
Late night skinny dipping with all the guys and girls
We were arrogant, had too much to spend
Life was laughing at us when we were students
We were nothing but a pain in the ass for our parents
Do you remember I used to sing in a rock band?
We were playing at my highschool and I wanted to shit my pants
We were so vain, we never stopped
3 am on the school's rooftop
The first time you drove your father's car
We went round and round over the boulevard
A license to drive, a license to ill
Doing a hundred and fifty just for the thrill
Getting stoned, climbing trees
Coming down for a little more weed
And we're still making memories
I've known some of you for 24 years
And I'm sure, with another 24, you'll still be here
Here in my heart, in my head and in my memories

For you and me

I see you struggle, with your heart on your sleeve
You've lost faith in everything you used to believe
Life can be hard if you don't know what you should be

I'm sure we'll die just like we came
Without a penny on our bank account, without shame
A thousand years from now, no one will know our names

Wouldn't we like to think we can make a difference?
Wouldn't we like our life to have a purpose?
It's nice having fun, but sometimes it's meaningless

We're just a drop of water in the ocean
We've lost faith in any kind of god, we believe in humans
We don't believe in love, we believe in best friends

I guess it's our generation
We're too free of authority, family and religion
Our life's a party, and everyone has an invitation

To hell with matters and values
We get drunk and do drugs as we choose
No one can get to us we're footloose

With nothing to believe in, we're always full of doubt
We should straighten ourselves out
And figure out what our life is truly about

I wanna overcome myself in every way
I wanna live life to the fullest everyday
I wanna do something before I turn grey

This ain't a story to be left untold
I wanna break it, shake it, become bold
I wanna lose cowardice before I'm old

I wanna get to where I should be
Look in the mirror at myself in complete honesty
And live a purposeful life for you and me

Subtle ;-P

Oh yes, I found someone who can beat me
Oh Eddy, you're as subtle as pornography
So my tits are doing great for such small ones?
I don't mind as long as they're having fun

Am I sweating like mad or is my pussy that wet?
Oh Eddy, even I'm not half that bad
Good for me my ego has already landed
And I'm not that easily offended

Oh Eddy, you and your blabber mouth
You're like a baboon having it all hang out
Your comment on my poem about my farts and cum face
Can be read by anyone who visits this page...

You have such an innocent face, like a kid
You can say these things and get away with it
Half the time you don't know what you're talking about
You even surprise yourself with the stuff coming out of your mouth

Oh yes, someone who is worse than me, finally
Dear Eddy, you're as subtle as pornography
But watch what you're saying when you're like that
Some things are better to be left unsaid

I don't wanna know

Sometimes It's so weird to see
I can still call you up for company
For borrowing some money
Or just plain smoking a doobie
No one understands me
The way you do
I lost my best friend when I broke up with you

Now you finally see
You took me for granted
That was all I wanted to hear, all these years
And you realize that now we have parted
It's strange to hear even you can feel alone
And you even doubted us building a home
You considered breaking up with me before I broke up with you

I can't believe
You said I can be so naive
You know me so well
I have to believe what you tell
Even though it's not what I want to see
I don't wanna feel this bad about myself
You know my job is below my level and I left myself on the shelf

I don't wanna know

It takes one to know one

You tell me you don't wanna be like your friend
Constantly having to score girls each weekend
Right after we f*cked all evening
Two days later I catch you and her close to kissing

You said you wanted to take it slow
Something didn't feel right, but you didn't know
Next day you're constantly on the phone
You beg me to come over, cause you can't wait that long

You told me you were so in love I even made you stutter
You told me this was the best thing that happened to you ever
And five days later it was all over
You tell me I don't know myself, but shouldn't you beg to differ?

We talk about us, it was a relationship finally
But the next day you break up with me
Don't come telling me I don't know me
When you are a contradiction in terminis

There's still only one person here who doesn't know
Where he's coming from or where he should go
I figured myself out some years ago
Might not be what you see
But it takes one to know one
And if you don't understand yourself, you'll never get me

So I may act cool and look for confirmation
I know I am insecure in some situations
You're surprised you don't recall
When you're drunk you talk about your job and all
How I'm smart and you're a nobody compared to me
But that's what you said more than once
So don't come explaining me to me
Look in the mirror baby

Stom

Onder de douche terwijl ik m'n haar sta te wassen
In de winkel tijdens het kleren passen
In de supermarkt in de rij bij de kassa
Terwijl ik lekker zit op een terras
Als ik met een van de lekkerste mannen van Nederland lig te zoenen
's Nachts in bed als ik een mug hoor zoemen
Terwijl ik mijn nieuwe thermopane ramen sta te boenen
Ook als ik de afwas sta te doen
Midden in een discussie over huismijt en bedwantsen
Terwijl ik met vrienden sta te dansen
Als ze jaloers zijn omdat ik altijd kan sjansen
Als er wordt gezegd: zoveel mannen, zoveel kansen
Tijdens het voetballen op het strand
Tijdens de wedstrijd Brazilië - Nederland
Terwijl ik aan de telefoon zit met een klant
Als ik wat over de burgemeester lees in de krant

En ik denk er ook aan terwijl ik dit zit te schrijven:
Waarom mocht je nou niet gewoon verliefd op mij blijven?

Ik laat mezelf echt teveel gaan, waar is mijn eigenwaarde?
Je bent godverdomme niet de laatste man op aarde
Maar je lach, je ogen, je krullen, je lichaam, je vrolijkheid
Je blijft na alles nog steeds pure perfectie voor mij
Kon ik maar gewoon boos op je zijn, dan was het misschien sneller voorbij
Maar daar ben ik te vergevingsgezind voor, dat werkt niet bij mij
Hoewel je genoeg koren op de molen hebt gegeven met je onsubtiliteit
Als jij toch eens wist wat je die avond op dat feest allemaal tegen mij zei...
Ik heb echt al alles geprobeerd om je uit mijn hoofd te krijgen
Maar ik blijf mij afvragen waarom je nou niet verliefd op mij kon blijven

Mister Mystery

You are the sex dream of each magazine
You blow my mind like no one of the human kind
You are the only one I can ever speak
This secret language between us and the sheets

You make my mind and body so high
You turn this lady into a wild child at night
I remember months ago when we met
You were so drunk I never thought you'd be like that

My heart is beating so fast, I have to write this:
You make me feel so beautiful
It's like the sun is always shining when you're in control
You are my Mister Mystery
And there's no way I can explain the way you make me feel
I feel so peaceful after we make love
I lay into forever, you're like the sweetest drug
It feels so good to fall asleep knowing that you are there
You make me glow and the whole world around me stops and stares

And when you left me out that day
I thought you would come back anyways
You don't, you won't, but that's okay
I ain't gonna fall, I gotta get up and roll
That's the way you want it, and I can't help it
I'm off to search a new lover
With my chance I might find better
I can picture you alone and in time you'll have to say
Damn I wonder why I broke up with that cool chick
Now I'm wasting all my time looking for girls to meet

Strangers

Maybe one day we'll be strangers
I'll be nothing but a vague memory
You'll think I used to love her
She used to love me

You'll be one of the guys
I let into my heart
I let into my life
But I'll finish the fairytale you weren't drunk enough to start

I had a crush in 2001
You left me before we barely begun
I had a crush in 2002
You loved me, but I stopped loving you
I had a crush in 2005
I thought we'd last, but you couldn't keep us alive
I had a crush in 2010
I thought I had finally found my man
But you were one of them
You didn't stay
Just another one on my love resume

Personality goes a long way

It may be years until
My fairytales will be fulfilled
It may be years until the day
My dreams will match up with my pay
It may be years until reality
Will match up with my fantasy
But I'll get there
Cause I've got personality

I can do that

When you're drunk it's like
You're made out of steel
And you're dying to feel
Cause your heart ain't real

When you're drunk it's like
You only want to get laid
You can't think straight
And you forget every promise you made

Next time you're drunk it'll be like this
Close your eyes and I'm on your skin
Close your eyes and you can stick it in
Close your eyes and I'll be your biggest sin

Cause whatever I did or said
I know I'll stay in your head
Cause of the things I'm good at
I know I can give you one look and you'll be hooked, cause I can do that

But remember this when you close your eyes
You had me once like no other man
We can look at each other that way only we can
But I'm never sleeping in your bed again

Geef het door

Denk je nog wel eens aan mij?
Dat het niet zo heeft mogen zijn?
Jij weet nog letterlijk alles wat ik zei
Want ik deed je zo onwijs veel pijn

Een volle liefdes CV later begin ik te snappen
Dat ik had moeten nadenken wat ik deed
Want nu heb ik mijn hart de grond in laten trappen
Door iemand die niet beter weet

Hij heeft de regels van het liefdesverkeer niet door
Ik voelde wat jij hebt doorstaan
Geef het door: egoïsten gaan voor
Maar ze komen nooit op hun bestemming aan

Tijdsloos (2004)

Waarom gaat de tijd door?
Waarom staat hij niet soms even stil?
Ik wou dat ik het stil kon zetten
Op ieder moment dat ik wil

Dan ging ik terug naar een zomerse dag
Toen ik nog verliefd was op jou
En heerlijk in je armen lag
Denkend dat het voor eeuwig duren zou

Lekker ongecompliceerd
Leven zonder haken en ogen
Het nadenken bijna verleerd
Totdat de tijd was omgevlogen

Uiteindelijk kwam er op een dag
Een einde aan het gedachteloze bestaan
En ik toch haken en ogen zag
En dacht: had de tijd maar stil gestaan

Unnecessary

Girl, I've seen you hanging around
You are the talk of the town
Cause you're letting your heart hang out

He ain't gonna change his plan
He's doing this because he can
You and his girl eating out of his hand

He doesn't know what you're worth
Neither do you if you let him treat you like dirt
He ain't the last man on earth

Girl, I've seen you hanging around
You are the talk of the town
Cause you're letting it all hang out

They're all ringing at your door
They only want pussy galore
Is that what you've been waiting for?

It's sad to see how your nights end
The way you put yourself out there with your friends
Is the hole in your soul really filled by men?

Girls, get out of this mess
Everybody sees your loneliness
Everybody feels your emptiness

It's sad to see
It's such a pity
Cause it's so unnecessary

Negativity

I think you're sweet
I know you truly care about me
But I can't handle your negativity

If I feel low
I laugh about it and turn around
But you keep on talking 'bout it and keep me down

I still believe
It's my own choice to feel what I feel
Even if it's a dream that will never be real

I don't need your reality
Cause I feel what I feel and if it makes me happy
I may fall flat on my face one day maybe

But I'll get up and groove
Cause that's the way I move
That's the way I live, that's what I choose

Misery loves company
But that ain't me
Cause I don't like your negativity

I wish I could turn you around
You've got a nice life too, no need to feel down
We can laugh about it, let me show you how

Anvers (Antwerpen)

Anvers, je veux habiter a d'Anvers.
J'adore les monuments de rue de la Meir,
L'architecture et la culture,
Les bâtiments et les places,
C'est amour sincère, ne c'est pas en face.
Anvers, je prendre entre mes bras!

(Hope my French is good enough for this)

Pool Table

Financial insecurity
Trouble with my family
I always want guys who don't want me
I thought at this age
I would have passed this stage
But I guess some things just never change
I thought 27 meant stable
I am young, willing and able
With more balls than a pool table
When will the tables turn?
Is there something I still have to learn?
Cause I do nothing but wait and yearn

The devil's best friend (2003)

It was just a date
I wanted to be friends
You thought I was sexy, but I was innocent
You keep calling me up
Keep sending me messages
I broke your heart and made your life a mess

Oh, the devil would wish
I was one of his
He couldn't do it as good as this

I never denied
You caught my eye
But I never said you were on my mind
Just a little flirt
But you dug deeper than that
You got me wrong and you got upset

Oh, the devil would wish
I was one of his
He couldn't do it as good as this

Just one look
And you can't resist
I'm the best you ever f*cked and kissed
You can't say no
I own your backbone
You want me, but you also want me to leave you alone

Oh, the devil would wish
I was one of his
He couldn't do it as good as this

New start (back in 2003)

It kinda felt like you burned my house down
Anyway you turned my life around
For always, for always

It kinda felt like I had no home
When I was sad, I didn't know where to go
Alone, so alone

Whether you hurt me or I hurt you
I kinda hope we learned a thing or two
Somehow, I hope so

So you'll always have a place in my mind
Even though you are not my kind
In the end I know

So if you've forgotten about me somehow
You are still a part of me now
For always, for always...

I'll be alright

I pick myself up from the ground
I'm not the type to feel so down
Look at the new glory I've found
I'm up for the rebound

I know it will happen for me
I'll get to that job with that salary
I can't give up so easily
I want to buy a house before I turn thirty

Look at me
I've acquired all I need
All I thought I'd never be
Who's laughing now, since I've got my Master's degree?

I've got my big backbone
I've got the will to fight
I've got the power
I'll be alright

Read me

Here is where I write my highs and lows
You're checking me out cause you wanna know
But if you really wanna know, pick up the phone
We had a fairytale, it was rather short
I had a lot of feelings I put down in words
So at first I thought this really hurts
Now I don't know what I feel
Somewhere I still think we could be ideal
Somewhere I also think half of this ain't real
We barely know each other, it all went so fast
I can surprise you, cause you thought I'd be half-mast
But I don't believe in love anymore, nothing lasts

Secret language

We've got this thing you only read about in magazines
We speak this secret language between the sheets
We only need one look and we've got maximum speed
We are faster than a Lamborghini
With this secret language no one else speaks

Small town blues

I know city people hate the narrow mindedness here
But I love I always have all my friends near
If I'm happy or down someone always wants to grab a beer
I can go to supermarket and bump into all my peers

Yes they all talk, people talk anyway
If I don't know them, I don't care what they say
I have friends who love me everyday
Just around the corner or a block away

I do what I want even if I'm a fool
I don't live here to act way too cool
I just want to have fun whatever I do
It's my life so I make up the rules

I dance my ass off everywhere there are beats
You catch me on queensday on the middle of the street
You can join me if you like to move your feet
Or you can stare at me if you think I act ridiculously

I know some can't wait 'till my ego has landed
I know some are wishing I was easily offended
I noticed on hyves some seem to have defriended
But I'm just me, nothing other than that

So I laugh loud in the middle of the bar
So I seem to look arrogant from up far
So I met you when I was drunk and forgot who you are
Everybody is sometimes caught off guard

I just go out and hang out with my friends
I don't think most people are all that different
Me and my friends love each other, no need to pretend
In this small town that I'll love 'till the end

Summertime

Beach or barbecue
Sunshine, sky blue
Party, concert
Wine, nice flirt
Old friends, new friends
Dancing to our favorite bands
Endorphin overdose
Feeling it from head to toes
I can see it with my eyes closed
Isn't it just pure perfection?
From 12 AM 'till 12 PM
Getting drunk and tanned
Can't wait 'till it's summer again

17-01-2010

Niet bereikend, de bestemming

Een in dwaling geëindigde vlucht

De reis had vol moed aangevangen

Maar de woorden bleven hangen in de lucht

Gedichtje :-D

Het is zo snel gegaan
Het was net een schoolreisje
Eerst zat ik nog in de achtbaan
Op de fiets naar de Shell voor een Ben en Jerry's ijsje

Het grootst pretpark: jouw slaapkamer
Hoewel de trap en de badkamer het ook goed deden
De volgende dag op werk de man met de hamer
Maar intussen smsen over hoe lekker hij erin was gegleden

Als ik Sinterklaas met jou zou vieren was je de lul in elk gedicht
Er rijmt best wel veel op happy feet
Tosti paradijs, klaarkomen in mijn gezicht
Biertjes drinken en hasj en wiet

Puistje uitknijpen terwijl ik aan de telefoon zit, ik was meer fan je andere lichaamssappen...
Op de maat van de muziek liggen snurken op de bank
Allebei op dezelfde dag op Sjaaks staart trappen
Als ze mij ziet wordt ze meteen weer bang

Oh had ik maar een foto van je helmet hair in Rosmalen
Of van die blik toen ik terugrufte die keer in de keuken
Of van die keer toen Sjaak 's nachts haar gram kwam halen
Dat ze tegen het raam sprong voor aandacht omdat ze ons hoorde n**ken

Oh well...

Perfect symmetry

I have to live and learn
Things I can't change, I must accept
Even though all I want to do is object
But nobody's perfect

Here I am again saying I hate fate
Why couldn't it just be you?
Why couldn't you have an everlasting crush?
Our whole lives through?

I still can't believe this happened to me
Our bodies seemed to synchronize
We had perfect symmetry
We had the same fire in our eyes

Will I ever experience that again
With any other man...?

Can't let go

I am dynamite and you provide the spark
One touch, one look and I'll explode
But could you come back and pick up the pieces?
Cause I can't let you go

There will never be another you

There will be many other nights like this
And I'll be standing here with someone new
There will be other songs to sing
Another fall, another spring
But there will never be
Another you

There will be other lips that I may kiss
But they won't thrill me like yours used to do
Yes I may dream a million dreams
But how can they come true
If there will never ever be another you?

Memory of you

I keep the memory of your body
In my hands, on my fingertips
Last Wednesday I kissed somebody
But it didn't feel like your lips

I can't get rid of it
The memory of your skin
Everytime I touch someone a little bit
I am looking for that feeling

No one kisses like that
No one feels like you do
No one is this good in bed
There will never be another you

Turn back time for this one thing...

Don't you ever think the slightest bit
There will never be sex as good as this
And there's a reason for it?

No matter what you say you miss
You and me had chemistry
I doubt if I'll ever find something like this

You don't know me

So you said you got to know me better
But how can you know me when you don't even know yourself?
You said you didn't see us get old together
But you don't know who I am

It was only a glimpse of me you caught
Psychologically you're even less than a nitwit
You thought I gave everything I got
So you thought this was it?

So you said you got to know my true personality
And that's why you felt less and less love for me
You only loved me cause it was something new
You only loved me cause I gave good sex to you

Right now there's only space for you
You can't handle women no matter what they do
Cause you only think about you
You broke up with me and all you asked was if I wouldn't get back at you

You, you, you, you, you, you, you!!!!

Mae

I've known you for half my life
Times will come when we will share more past
Than future
Cause boyfriends and jobs may not always last
But we're for sure

Ostrichism

Where do I keep finding these men?
That will never see, never understand
You go through life with your head stuck in the sand
Your willful ignorance
Will keep you from any chance
To look at yourself the way you are and make amends
You'll never find rest
You'll never pass this life's test
Even if she's a psychologist trying for the best
You don't know what you want
You can't explain how you feel
You tell me that you love me when it ain't real
Do you even know what love is?

Drop dead, gorgeous!

You break my heart at a party
You let me bike home alone on XTC
You let me bike home with more than I could carry
I was alone in your house for hours
I was crying in your bed, I was crying in your shower
I wanted to go home, but the drugs took all my powers
You don't call or sms to ask if I'm okay
You're only concerned if this won't get in your way
If we can still bump into each other and say hey
There are so many things I forget
But I still remember every fucking word you said
The night before I asked where we were at
You reassured my feelings, took away doubts and concerns too
Four days without me, turned out to be a test for you
Why was I with you this weekend if you knew we were through?
I have more emotions than just lust
I swallowed your cum cause I believed in us
Drop dead, gorgeous!

Eddy

I'm not the mad kind
Revenge takes too much effort
But still I'm going out of my mind
Even though it lasted so short

Didn't you say a week ago
This was too beautiful to let go?
And now you're surprised I didn't know
You said you had obviously shown

But you said saturdaynight
We can call this a relationship
Don't you think you're a liar?
Or did you really mean it?

.....

When I sleep, I don't feel
I can dream it's not real
I can pretend it never happened at all
Pretend you never broke my heart
You never stole my soul
And then just let me fall
I had to wake up with you
Cause you were gone all night long
And left me in shock on my own

Eddy again and again and again

You caught my eye
You caught my mind
You stole my life
But it's alright

You took my lungs
I breathe your rhythm
I sing your songs
But it's alright

Your eyes set fire
Your kiss burns
You fill me with desire
And steal my nights

If I don't see you in the daylight
You'll come to me in my dreams at night
Whatever, whenever, you're always on my mind

What's wrong?

Why do you make me hit rock bottom before I can get up again?
I just wanna see you everyday, even if it's just for a minute or ten
Your sms's make it seem like we're in some kind of contest
We have to keep distance otherwise we'll fail the test
I think it's ridiculous
I just wanna come by your house
I promise I won't stick around
But I can't promise we won't get aroused
Just one touch from those lips
Just one touch from those fingertips
Just those arms around my hips
I want you so bad
Tell me what's wrong with that?

Lot of a lot

Me and my man we've got this relationship
Sometimes I miss him so bad it almost makes me sick
I just wanna be in his arms every day and night
His lips so soft, his blue eyes reflect light
All day long I think of his broad shoulders
My heart is racing over 200 miles per hour
He is so hot, he is so well designed
I constantly have only one thought in mind
I can't keep track of my thoughts
He makes me want a lot of a lot

On the brake

If I would tell you how I feel would you get scared?
If I would make you feel what I feel would you feel pressured?
I know you like to take it slow, afraid to lose what we've got
But my love is on the brake, you're not even getting half the lot
All I see is you're battling, way too afraid to lose control
But If I love you more, it doesn't mean I'll swallow you whole
Don't be so scared I'll take over your house or your life
You are stuck in thoughts cause you think it doesn't feel right
But those thoughts have got nothing to do with me
I just wanna love you, I respect you and your boundaries

I also wanna tear down that wall you've been building
When can I show you my real thing?
When can I take it off the brake?
When are you ready for full speed?
Cause I respect you, but I also have some needs
I think you can only see my real me
As soon as you understand yourself more precisely
Cause if you know you, you'll see
Claiming, in need of entertainment, that's not me
All that you misinterpret
I wanna get it out of your head
If you are willing to open up for it
I'll show you the real you bit by bit

Enlighten

I need your attention to feed me
I need nice things to shape my identity
I need identity to be happy
What I really need is to be free

I think therefore I am
Are my thoughts and feelings who I am?
If it's a choice to feel and think what I want?
Am I mean if I think mean thoughts?

Am I sweet if I think sweet thoughts?
Do my thoughts and emotions define me?
Cause if I change my mind I'll be a different person constantly
Can I enlighten myself?

Tell me

I'll make heads turn wherever we are
I'll make love like a porn star
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll teach you all about psychological wealth
Cause I can make you feel cool about yourself
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll cook you the best meals
I'll be so good it's almost surreal
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

You'll love all my best friends
We'll always have fun every weekend
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll take you to places you've never been
I'll show you things you've never seen
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll give you the best music straight from the scene
I'll show you moves and I'll be your dancing queen
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll bring you art and poetry
I'll bring you literature and chemistry
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll blend right in with your friends
Cause you and me match immense
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

Humor and fun, laughing it is
Never a dull moment with Chris
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll never bore you, I'll always adore you
As long as you'll say you adore me too
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

Capitol E, Capitol C

Don't ever lose the fire in your eyes
When my new lingerie gets you paralyzed
Don't ever lose that look on your face
When I've cooked some amazing tastes
Don't ever lose that smile from ear to ear
When I know exactly what music you like to hear
Don't ever lose those butterflies
When you notice we're like dynamite
Don't ever stop when you're on a roll
Talking about work, the weekend or football
Don't ever stop making me scream your name
When you and me are making the bed flame
Don't ever stop glowing when you realize
Our dance moves are almost synchronized
Don't ever stop feeling happy when you see
Everything simply rhymes between you and me
I love you with a capitol E, you love me with a capitol C

The way you react

Screw your head off your body
Let's look inside
All those thoughts about me
Ain't always right
I never tried to claim you
So I can't claim you any less
You say you can't do what you want to do
And I make your agenda a mess
But honey you can't blame me
Cause you invited me in
And then you feel like you have to entertain me
But I never asked for such a thing
You feel like I call you to account
But you change plans all of a sudden
I just want to know what it's all about
Cause you never asked my opinion
I thought I was in this thing too
But you don't negotiate
Everything is decided by you
And then I end up getting blamed
Cause I don't like the last minute change
It's not an interrogantion
That I just like to have it explained
So next time I can avoid this situation
If you want to do something
Tell me beforehand
So we can do some planning
And you don't have to feel claimed in the end
Why do you get all these feelings?
It's not because of the way I act
I never did any of these things
It's the way you react

My heart is so merry

Some people think others are ignorant and dumb
If they don't know where their feelings are coming from
I find it important to think about how you could be
Especially if you feel bad about hurting me
So if you open up and feel the necessity
It's never dumb, there are no false answers, just you trying to see
So I will give you all the necessary clues
But if you want to know how you work, you must think too
Cause I can't change someone's mental health
You can only do that by yourself
But I will love you all the same if this will never change
I feel like I'll learn from hurt and pain
Quitting is for losers, I must sustain
It's my own choice to feel this way
I know you don't mean half of what you say
I can bend that slap in my face
Cause you have your own feelings misplaced
As soon as I know you better
I can keep myself together
I'll be able to anticipate to it
Cause you say what you want and act the opposite
I interpret your behavior, not your thoughts
Cause you don't understand half of the feelings you've got
Tough times don't last, tough people do
You learn from me, but I most certainly learn from you
Whatever you do, I know it comes from your heart
I'll accept, I'll feel merry, cause I am resilient

Missiles

Defensive
Like I would wanna boss you around
As if
Aggressive
This is where you draw the line
As if

As if I would want to fight
As if I will take over your life
As if you don't have any say in this
As if your vote is being dismissed
As if you think I won't listen to you
As if I won't respect your point of view

Overprotective
Like I won't accept your boundaries
As if
Offensive
I'm here to please you, not to seize you
As if

As if your vote won't count
As if you won't get your word out
As if you won't be heard
As if you don't rule your own world
As if you need to be ready for war
When I haven't said a thing so far

It's not going to be a debate
You can say what you wanna say
You can be what you want to be
You don't have to fire missiles at me
I won't push you around at all
But yet you always feel like you're with your back against the wall

As if I want to be the boss
As if you'll never get your point across
As if you have to be against the grain
Or else I'll be your ball and chain
As if your opinion doesn't matter
As if it needs to be battled

Stop to think and reconsider
I only want this thing to get better
Whatever you do I will respect
Whatever you need I won't object
I'm your lover, not your enemy
Stop firing your missiles at me

See yourself in a bird's eye view
See the way others look at you
Check yourself from above
Battling with love
Relax and let us be as good as we can be
Stop firing missiles at me
Whatever you want, whatever you need
I'll always listen carefully

No remorse anymore

I was the always and secure
So jealousy would never occur
You never really showed me
And I felt you owed me
I thought you had it coming all along
But there's no excuse for my wrong
You thought you had my love
But you didn't know what I was capable of
If everybody's out hunting and you stay home
Do you expect they'll leave me alone?
I just passed the scene of the crime
But you go your way and I go mine
And I will never forget
I was the one who always said
There's no right way of loving
Everybody's got their own thing
You show it your way, I do to
But I never really felt it from you
So I dreamed about others
About kissing them in dark bars
You always left me hanging there
I found the perfect excuse for an affair
Sometimes the male attention is so sickening
I only wished for one thing:
You should have made me feel regret
Told me you love me, dragged me to bed
Come pick me up, showed them I'm yours
But now it's too late for remorse

Too hard

You go with the flow
Then you stop to think "no"
I've become more flexible than a gymnastics pro

You see things that aren't there
You start gasping for air
All the while I'm left completely unaware

Suddenly I realise
That stare in those blue eyes
Means nothing but trouble in paradise

Honey please you think too hard
But maybe you should think before you start
Before you let it get out of hand
You always realize afterwards this ain't what you planned
You say you wanna go slow
I don't mind whatever you want I'll go with your flow
You say this shouldn't become an issue
You haven't heard yourself talking, cause that's exactly what you do
You don't know what's going on inside my brain
Yet you fill me in and think I expect to be entertained

You change your plans late
You feel like you suffocate
Isn't love suppose to make you feel great?

I'm nothing like that
This is all inside your head
Stop thinking and have fun with me instead

My presence in the weekends has become naturally
You don't know what's inside my head obviously
Cause no matter how often I'm around you still don't get me

Honey please you think too hard
Halfway you realize you are a little off guard
Maybe you should think about other stuff
Just let us be funny and sexy and completely in love
You say you wanna go slow
But whatever you want I doubt if you really know
You say this shouldn't become an issue
But you keep bringing it up every two weeks or so
I never wanna get you chained
I've got my own life I'm not the kind that needs to be entertained

Just let go of the control
Don't feel bad about it all
I know you'll manage, we'll stand tall

Please don't forget me
It feels a little like I've lost my vote lately
And maybe I also have some ideas about how we could be
So please don't think too hard about this, baby

My Funny Valentine

(My favorite lovesong ever, if I could ever write this good)

My funny Valentine
Sweet comic Valentine
You make me smile with my heart
Your looks are laughable
Unphotographable
Yet you're my favourite work of art
Is your figure less than Greek
Is your mouth a little weak
When you open it to speak
Are you smart
But don't change a hair for me
Not if you care for me
Stay little Valentine stay
Each day is Valentine's day

Rough (2009)

Can you kill an animal with bare hands?
Can you lift me up and walk me around?
Can you fight like a real man?
Can you fix my car when it’s broken down?

I know your sweet loving is fine
And you understand my period
And you like to take your time
But please skip foreplay when I’m already hot

I need a rough man
To tell me bear liver is poisonous
To climb a tree to pick an apple for me
Who takes muscle strength quite serious

Do you know how to grind a knife?
Are you strong enough to break a fork in two?
Do you experience the least bit of fright,
Facing lions that escaped from the zoo?

You’re upset when you’re stung by a bee
You don’t mind when you didn’t come
You’re weak cause you’re in love with me
Are you fooling your own testosterone?

I need a rough man
To knock a burglar unconscious
To dive into the sea to catch a shell for me
Who takes muscle strength quite serious
I need a rough man!

Your name rhymes with horny (and f*ck me)

My heart hits itself unconscious
I see that look in your eyes
I see your tensed muscles
I feel you deep inside

I feel your heartbeat all over your body
You make me wanna scream and beg
I hear you breathe heavily
You fit so perfectly between my legs

Your hand fits exactly around my breast
My nails dig in your back and your behind
I lick your muscled chest
Your lips match mine so divine

Your tongue hits the right place
You make my body shake hard
My mind is going outerspace
I feel you in every bodypart

You know exactly how to grab a hold of me
I know it sounds hard to believe
But the way you're doing me, Eddy
Is exactly as I had always dreamed in my fantasies

My favorite meat

You're funny, you're upbeat
You're just like me
You're joyful and you're happy feet
You're just what I need

You're pretty, you're sweet
You're just like me
I think I'm gonna have to face defeat
You make me wanna go dancin' in the street

You're sexy, you're a treat
You're just like me
You're so f*king good between the sheets
You're my favorite meat

Cliché about me

My first boyfriend made me drawings and paintings
The second one bought me nice expensive things
But you go beyond creativity and diamond ear rings
Cause you, you make loving fun
You do things no one else has ever done
You laugh about all my jokes, even the corny ones
I don't need no Picasso or lots of money
You have personality, you're upbeat and funny
You acknowledge me and all my qualities
You could never bore me
As long as you adore me
Tell me what I want to hear
And I will always love you dear

Inner voice

If I could turn you inside out
And see where those thoughts sprout
The situation is not that bad
But the thoughts you've had
Are your inner voice
And the feelings you give to it
They are a conscious choice
Just like I choose to live with it

If you turn me inside out
You'll find a conscious choice
To live with your doubts
Cause my inner voice
Doesn't count
An emotion doesn't last long
A second of chemistry between neurons
If I don't want it to linger on
I choose not to get stuck in too much thinking
I live by my gut feeling
Sometimes only time can tell
Sometimes you have to give in
Don't be afraid your life will end
Be afraid it will never begin

Oh yeah

You have no idea what you do to me
There's even something sexy in the way you breathe
The smell of your sweat makes me horny
All day long I think about touching your body
I think about how hard you make love to me
No one has ever made me feel so sexy
You and me we've got a doctoral in chemistry
I feel like I could spend my life
Traveling every inch of your body each night
And still discover something new each time

My friends

I never have to worry with you
There's always something cool coming due
We're having a nice day ahead
You sms it'll be groovy, awesome and solid
My friends are so relaxed
I never have to worry what's next
Never a dull moment
It's always fun from breakfast 'til breakfast
All night and day it'll last
Cause my friends are the best!

What's simple is true

So many things you say you want to discover
But who says you can't get there with a new lover?
Maybe I can make you see things in a different light
We don't have to be perfect, but we're all right
Cause I don't need much to be happy, I guess
I watch you fall asleep as you watch me undress

Oh simplicity
Is doing it for me
But when you
Start thinking harder than I do
You've made it
A little complicated

I got in your life, I stole your mind
Leave all your ideas about right and wrong behind
Let go of those thoughts and just feel desired
Cause I can set your soul on fire
We both blend in so perfectly with each others friends
And that's what I find important

Oh simplicity
Is doing it for me
But when you
Start thinking harder than I do
You've made it
A little complicated

Everybody's got their something
So you go ahead and rethink things
You bend your dents
Or make new ones again
I know I don't want to change a thing about you
You can be complicated as long as you need to

Love thyself

I am free
Of former ideas and thoughts
Everything I told myself I should be
I should not

No more monologue inside me
Nothing I have to prove
I know what I can be
Anything will do

It's so liberating
I can shape myself in any way
My brain stopped debating
Whatever I am, it's always okay

Insight?

I think I know what you mean
A sight I had not foreseen
But I've had some time to reconsider
Your reactions a bit further

In-laws, expectations
Responsibility, obligations
Adjusting your life to fit me in
I can understand that's not happening

But can I still be in your dreams?
Where your thoughts can be free
Can I still be the girl in your fantasies?
And drop by your house when you want to see me?

XTC (Xtreme Times with Chris)

Let me take you to the moon and back
Let me give you a heart attack
Don't live by your thoughts, live by the gut
Let me be your homie, let me be your best bud
It's nothing but fun, fun, fun
I'll give you a dancing sun
I'll rock your ass
I'll make you laugh
Come and dance along with me
I'll be better than XTC

All I need

You think you know what I need
You think I need more than your feed
Maybe I am too simple to be true
All I need is attention from you
I don't need poetry in return
I don't need you to learn what I've learned
I don't need correct spelling in your sms's
In fact I couldn't care less!
I don't care how many books you've read
I just want to be in your head
Tell me how I impress you because
I need acknowledgment and applause
From the man with the bluest eyes
The man with the biggest smile
The happiest face, the cutest behind
And a personality that goes on for miles
I want you to say you want me more and more
Cause all I am is an attention whore

1 mei

Mijn hoofd lag in een spagaat
We stuiterden over straat
En wat had jij jezelf aangepraat?
Je bent echt niet beter af als je mij verlaat

Mijn benen zweven door de lucht, ik ga over de kop
Geen achtbaan kan tegen jouw liefde op
Jij snapt mijn Beach Life gedicht, daarom weet ik dat het tussen ons klopt
En het mooie is, we zitten nog laaaang niet op onze top

We matchen, we maken op dezelfde manier plezier
We hebben allebei het concentratievermogen van een goudvis
We zijn allebei een enorm sociaal dier
Vrienden, terrassen, barbecueën, strand, klaar voor de start: Bier!

Zoveel heb ik niet nodig om gelukkig te zijn
Ik word blij van je gekookte ei
Van je bouwfucker smsjes en je vrolijkheid
En dat je zo lekker verliefd bent op mij

Sinds ik afgestudeerd ben en niet meer tussen de boeken leef
Heb ik een geheugen als een zeef
Ik zit alleen maar bij vrienden en ik leef
Ik leef omdat er zoveel is waar ik niet meer om geef

Carrière, hoog salaris, mezelf bewijzen
Presteren, intelligentie en anderen op hun fouten wijzen
Ik ben er klaar mee, ik wil niet meer onder mezelf lijden
Ik wil mezelf ontplooien in vriendschappen en relaties en een goed mens zijn

Ik zal je alle tijd en ruimte geven
Als nog maar even wil blijven kleven
Dan kan ik je hier nu op dit briefje geven
Dat dit het beste en mooiste zal zijn wat je zal overkomen in je leven

If I could mend my lonely friend...

It cracks me up when I hear your story
There's no one out there that can make you happy
There's no one out there to stop you from feeling lonely
You need to understand, you need to see

You don't need another relation-shit
You don't need some guy acting worse than the last one did
You don't need me to tell you you've got it
You need to love yourself a little bit

No one else can fill the void
Alcohol won't fix your soul
You can feel like you're going low
But nothing will have you destroyed
If you love yourself a little more

Wilhelminastraat 56

Oh yes, I must confess I am addicted to this life
You can always call me for some wine if there's sunshine
Remember that night we sat outside and enjoyed the moonlight?
We had overdone the definition of alright
It was heaven, we saw the sun go down
Some old records playing at the background
Our best friends all came around
We manage friendship to the point where it's profound
Our friendship is an everlasting playground

About friends

The easiest things to say
Are the hardest things to do
But even when it doesn't feel okay
I will learn something new

Sometimes you need to tell me
How my role in these things should be
Cause I can lose myself too easily
And forget who I am, slightly

Words would fail to describe
What you mean to my life
Now I know what it feels like
To have someone equal for the first time

You make pieces fall to its place
I can live at an easier pace
You will always love me anyway
So I never have to feel ashamed

I just know whatever I'm going through
Even if I turned my life into a zoo
You just change me with your point of view
And that's what I love about you

Some of you I've known since I was three
I have memories of climbing trees
Being taken of the school rooftop by the police
Or just skateboards and walkie talkies

Pictures capture a time span in an eyewink
Photo albums pass us by
Our hair colors like ink, from black to pink
We're still the same without the dye

Years go by and I'm wondering
Does my brain have the capacity
For so much memories?
Cause I don't want to forget a thing

Life goes by, another festival
So many things I hardly recall
Having a friend like you makes me lucky
Do you realize that at all?

I can't make rain or shine
I'm just your friend if that's fine
So if it's your job or your family
Cry my sweater wet if you need me

I am not the most perfect friend probably
But fate sure has some plans with me
When we go out and laugh all night
I go home and I smile inside

You get me more down to earth than gravity
I'm your beat, you're my melody
We make each other complete
Without you I wouldn't be me

Just some drinks at your place is so nice
It's the best place to go to when I close my eyes
With you as my best friend everything's alright
I think of you and I smile inside

I’m not that bad…

Some days I talk too much about myself
I can’t keep my mouth shut and I kiss and tell
Or a tiny problem makes me act like I’m in hell

Sometimes I’m arrogant and I love myself
I pop my collar and act a little too swell
Tell me I’m sick and need to get well

But I’m the one you can call at night
I won’t hang up until your tears have dried
I will make you laugh when you feel sad
I might not be perfect but I’m not that bad

Some months my finances are a mess
I can’t pay my bills and get overstressed
Cause I buy shoes ‘til my creditcard screams S.O.S.

There are some things hard to confess
I like to think that I’m the best
But I can cry if I don’t understand SPSS

You should know I’m not the girl next door
Call me up if you refuse to be bored
I will help you out if you’re going mad
I might not be perfect but I’m not that bad

It’s hard to go out on a date
I take my time and always get late
Don’t get mad if I make you wait

This other thing people always hate:
I know best, no need to debate
Someday I’ll admit you were right, keep the faith!

So if you don’t mind my big ego
Or my problems to have a steady cash flow
If I can call you about SPSS every minute or so
Or if I can’t admit you are right and you can let it go
If you don’t mind me putting on a show
Or if it’s ok I was late like an hour or so
I love you more than anything in the world, I just wanted you to know

Push and pull

How can you expect to stay reliable
If you act so undefinable?
If you don't make up your mind, I will

Don't wanna put a knife at your throat and force it out
But if I know I can have a sky without clouds
Why would I want to wake up with doubts?

And I know I always make the same mistake with men
I run you over again and again
Maybe it's time for you to teach me my lesson

Then again, I just wanna go with the flow
And you've got this feeling you can't let go
Where it's coming from, you don't know

You make it complicated when I feel relaxed and sure
You leave me confused and insecure
Please think about this, I want to see it cured

As soon as we've made plans you need to change your agenda
Are you afraid to get stuck in a relationship and I'll make you surrender?
I'm not like that at all, but I've got a life and an agenda too, remember?

I think you should think hard about what you feel and see
And explain to yourself how you want this to be
Cause you can't push me away and pull me back in constantly

Love economy

I aim to please
I help you move
I do your groceries
I cook for your friends
What do you do for me?

I take you to the hospital
I listen to all your stories
I clean your house
I do your laundry
What do you do for me?

I aim to please
I feed your cat
I buy sexy undies
I fix your TV
What do you do for me?

I take you to the doctor
I fix your bike
I fix your computer
I sew your buttons
What do you do for me?

You can always count on me
Anytime, anyday, I'm ready
I adjust my plans
To be with you in the weekend
What do I do for me?

When are my needs met?
I always give more than I get
I make this mistake again and again
Is this just the way I am?
My best friend says that's what's so special about me
But it doesn't feel right, cause even love is economy
For every little bit I give I do expect something in return
Will I ever learn?

The colors of E

Purple is the color of my shirt when I met you
When you asked me for a kiss but I wouldn't let you
It was a dark day for you that day
Your circumstances had led you astray
We met again you made apologies for the other night
I thought you looked kinda hot wearing white
I started to like those blond curls
But that night you didn't join me and the girls
Next I wore dark blue jeans when you hit my behind
I was offended, saw you and then didn't mind
I took you back to my little white house
My colorful living room with my white couch
We danced until our faces got red
And ended up in my newly bought bed
Pink is the color of your face when you shine
And blue is the color of your eyes
I could say the rest is history
But too much white wine is taking up my memory
The truth is I can't bring to mind
When I saw your house for the first time
I just ended up in this colorful world
Made by the hands of these blond curls
It's nice to see how you rebuild the whole place
And let the color of love fill up the space
Green is the color your kitchen used to be
And your eyes are so blue it's heavenly

Faint

Week days can be boring
Filled with longing
Yearning, aching
Desiring, craving
Pining, lingering
Desperate wanting
Wanting too much of never enough
My whole body tingles when I stand before you
When I see you the head rush is so great
I sometimes feel like I could faint

Revision

I know exactly what lessons to learn from you
This is a challenge and an opportunity for me too
Sometimes you have to learn to let go of the past
Let go of thoughts that didn't make love last
It's okay for you to start to analyse
Think about yourself, have yourself revised
Hats off to all the good in you
I can learn more than just a thing or two
I tend to over analyse almost everything
I think about thinking, I talk about talking
You're so relaxed, you can enjoy yourself
Yet you're also willing to revise your mental health
Joyfull, willing, happy and modest
Learning, open, funny and honest
Put those good traits you've got in a frame
It's okay to be proud of yourself everyday
Did anyone ever tell you, your heart is so kind
You're the kind of guy that has eyes for the blind
You're my one and only lottery ticket
We're heading for nothing less than fanatastic

Glue

You're the perpetrator
The belly butterfly creator
How could I ever have a bad day?
I hear your voice and it's all okay
You're the offender
Let's mix our hearts in a blender
You're my kind of wonderful
You make the sun shine in my soul
There's nothing else I'd rather do
Than stick to you like glue

Running on Eddy

You could be near, you could be far
You're mostly stuck inside my heart
It doesn't matter where you are
I feel you even when we're apart
My heart jumps and palpitates
When you call me on the phone
Knowing what love awaits
I can feel it in my bones
You're in every heart chamber I've got
You're in every vein and artery
You're the oxygen in my blood
My engine is running on Eddy

You suck me dry

The STD that led to your infertility
I'm keeping your secret safe with me
Your father in law is a pedophile
How I've wanted to call the cops all the while
The abortion from the cheating man
Your secret is safe in my hands
You're seeing prostitutes while your wife dies
I won't tell a soul about her lonely cries
You've got bulimia and special therapy
I'm keeping your secret safe with me
A husband, a child and a lover on the side
Sometimes you all just suck me dry
It's nice to be everybody's best friend
But when will your secrets ever end?
It's nice for you I'm not that judgmental
But that doesn't mean I won't judge at all
Sometimes I wanna slap you all in the face
Take hold of your problems and make a change
I can't tell a soul about any of this
This week it just cracks me up

Bizarre

Sometimes things turn so bizarre
We had been checking each other from up far
I saw you and thought you weren't that bad
You didn't seem to be my type at all
I thought you'd be nice for a kiss or two
I never thought I'd fall this hard for you

Intruder

Sometimes I feel like I'm an intruder
Everywhere I look I stumble upon her
Her stuff is still lying around your house
She needs to drop by when I'm around
She calls you up when we want to go to bed
Right after we made love very passionate
Her stuff's in the bathroom closet, mine in the shower cabin
Her contact lenses are still in your trash bin
It wouldn't feel weird to have the keys to your place
If it didn't seem like she only just left you yesterday

Dear Eddy

You can't find the words to explain
What's going on inside your brain
You're just talking in pictures
Thinking in shapes and colors
If I were your head you would be heard
I would give all those feelings words
Behind that door, there's another door
Think harder to get to the core
You just need to ask yourself why
Why are these thoughts behind those blue eyes?
Sometimes you need to dig in to dig out
Let me give you the words to say it out loud
Too good to be true and such a head-rush
So fast, so soon, I understand the distrust
You think: "This can't be happening to me"
I feel just the same, you're my ecstasy
I'm in your face, overwhelming and wow
But please don't forget the power of now
Just sit back and enjoy the ride dear Eddy
Let it overcome and trust me

Hold that thought

Seize the moment
Hold that thought
Don't go anywhere
Let's feel a lot

Let's be appalling
And change the definition
Of hardcore loving
Let's be each other's everything

Determine my heartbeat
Determine my thoughts
Be hot and sweet
Let's get distraught

But whatever you do: hold that thought!

The speed of love

There you go
You're making memories with me
We ain't slow
We're going at a great velocity
It feels good
It's only weird if you stop to think about it
But who says I should
I just wanna enjoy every little bit

Burn

My fingers burn when I think of touching your hair
My eyes flame when I look at you
My heart burns for you everywhere
I don't want to, but have to
I have to wait
I hate to wait
Cause you think it's better
I just want us to be together
Do you know how this feels?
It feels like there's something wrong with head over heels

Open up the lit if you dare

No objection
To my fear of rejection
I can't take it
If you hold back a little bit
I know I am too upfront
If you don't want what I want
I've got nothing left to say
If I don't have it my way
Why would you want to keep me away from you?
It feels like I want this more than you do
Are you afraid to open up the lit
And see me take a run for it?
Do you think we're heading for disaster?
This fire I've got won't extinguish faster
Even if you're in all my seconds
If you're in all my atoms, all my moments
I'm like a dog with a bone
I won't let go, don't leave me alone
You're in my heart, you're in my head
You're in my veins, you're in my sweat
You're this junk's next shot
You're my high, you're my god
You're the itch I can't get rid of
These are the moments I don't like being in love
My love won't fade, if I see you always
If I could see you a lifetime I wouldn't wanna miss a day

Fired

Sometimes I doubt if I'm allowed
To be on this clowd
With all the stuff I lie about

I lie awake
About the mess I make
I always wait 'til everything's at stake

I should have seen this coming
I thought my job was boring
How could I not do anything?

I had a feeling premature
This is more than I can endure
I am so fired for sure

Splendid

I don't mind if your snoring awakens me
Cause I just love to see you sleep so peacefully
I like to see you busy
I watch you cook and enjoy you secretly
When you think you're unattended
That glow you've got turns overly splendid
My heart becomes radiant
I know what I need, what I want
That smile you've got, those eyes so blue
I have been saving all my dreams for you

Ed

I wanna crawl inside you
In your arms and in your heart
It seems your eyes are becoming more blue
Every moment I spend with you

You are my greatest adventure
I never thought you'd be like this
You're sincere, funny, beautifull and pure
More than my every wish

Let our love grow tall
I am in your bed, in your head
I am running out of brain chemicals
Cause I am high on you, Ed

Can't promise forever twice?

It feels so weird sometimes
I can't promise forever twice
If the first time already turned out to be a lie
I wanna give it a chance
But I'm scared of the consequences
I want to prevail instead of fail in this romance
I really thought he was my man
I promised him a one life stand
Four and a half years later I was alone again
So if I go head over heels
If I tell you how this really feels
Will these words and promises remain my ideals?
As always the case
Answers will come if I wait
I just have to believe in myself and keep the faith