The way it ought to be

I get so tired of the way things ought to be
Why can't I just be me?
So what I haven't found mister Right?
I don't have domestic dreams every night
Just me is just fine
I'm sure I'll find someone somewhere along the line

This is my life and the way I live it
Maybe not the future you had designed for me
But I think my life is absolutely splendid
And I like to do things that make me happy

I get so tired of the way things ought to be
Why can't I just be me?
So what I drink a little too much wine?
So what I come home late Friday and Saturday night?
I feel I am doing just fine
I don't have to be Miss Goody Two Shoes all the time

This is my life and the way I live it
Maybe not the future you had designed for me
But I think my life is absolutely splendid
And I do not live to make you happy

Mom & Dad

You say you love me no matter what I do
But it always feels like you would love me more
If I would act like you want me to

Obliged to take you into account
My whole life, my every move
My own opinion doesn't count

I must respect your authority
And always follow your orders
There's no room to be me

You wonder why I am so insecure?
I'm intelligent and good looking
I'm popular, I've got a great sense of humor

I was just never good enough
There was always something I should do better
And now you're old and begging for my love

I've become more self-assured and you know why?
I see you act and all those things I recognize
You are my mirror in life

I act like you, think again, reconsider
It makes me happy and love myself
You've passed the age of insight, you've turned bitter

I wish that I could make you see
But if I would tell you how to be better
I would do the same thing you did to me

For years I've puzzled why can't you let me be?
But I lived at your disposal
There to fulfill your emotional needs
Now I know you're a narcissist and I can't fill your soul's hole

01.50 AM

Sometimes I think why did we meet
If it wasn't meant to be?
I barely remember what it felt like
Even though we broke up only four months ago
Four and a half years is a long time
You're even on my sister's wedding video
And they're not even together anymore
How could I have gotten over you so fast?
It seems everybody's breaking up
Will anything last?

Find yourself

For me all the awnsers I need are so easy
You don't have a clue
If you could see yourself, you'd see what I see
And you'd know what to do

You're sick of yourself
Everyday is a 100 kilo battle against the scale
I wish I could help
Stop you from feeling like a whale

You lose, you gain
You hate, you love
Yourself
What is hidden behind it?
Why can't you find it?
You need to find yourself

Wow

My life has got so much to offer
I can be mature, self-assured
Or just choose to act like a teenager

And what happened to me Friday night
I think about it real hard for a minute or five
And then I just go on with my life

Living is so easy right now
The process I'm in is so wow
I don't have to worry, I'll manage anyhow

I can take on the world
I can be that girl
That girl I always wanted to be
Is now really me

RRRRRRRR

There I go with my cool act
And yes I'm handy and sexy
And I probably earn more salary
He thinks he knows what he rejects
But he doesn't know a thing about me
I am more intelligent and funny
But I do know his facts
And he has been lax
In knowing mine
Cause I could have been his all this time
But he choose not to react
Cause he is 18 inside his head
And I have lost my interest

So you think you don't need anyone?
You think you're still having fun
Wait until you're thirty-one
And ask yourself again

Pretty Face

Oh pretty face, oh pretty face
Where's your personality?
Your nice looks aren't doing it for me

So you think everybody loves the pretty one
But being cool is far too serious
I want someone who knows how to have fun

Oh pretty face, oh pretty face
Where's your authenticity?
This has no effect on me

Rule Breaker

And I promised myself
Not to get into this mess
But I always get too eager
And guys lose their interest

You can take advantage of me
I wear my heart on my sleeve
But I fall for it conciously
I am not naive

I open up easily
And I know what I do
I always hurt me
Cause I break my own rules

I keep saying
Here I go again
I see it happening
I can't stick to my plan

Someday I'll see and be able
To not put my heart out there
And not throw all my cards on the table
For people who don't really care

Oxygen

You seem so nonchalant
But you've really thought it over
You may seem a little arrogant
But you're just scared to let go

Is it so important to stay the man?
No kissing in public, stay in control
Give your heart a little oxygen
Give yourself a love life before you're old

The craziest thing

You don't understand I am scared to
End up in a relationship like I used to
When you think more about him than he does about you

I wake up with one thought in mind
I go through my day thinking I must unwind
These thoughts prove love makes me blind

You have no idea you caught the crazy bitch
The one and only girl in town with an itch
But I have to wait until you open up for this

Maybe you're not as crazy as I thought
The first question you asked me on the dot
But you never listened to the answer you got

The craziest things I ever did
Was when I fell head over heels and made it
The best love my ex-boyfriend had ever hit

A box with 20 gifts and 8 kilo's of candy hearts to prove my love
A valentine's card 1.60 m. - 1.10 m. was barely big enough
I made him his own magazine all about him and his favorite stuff

The craziest thing I've ever done
Is fall head over heels for someone
And do everything you think can't be done

I want you

The feeling of fright and despair
Sometimes I can have it everywhere
The yearning for a touch, a hand, I glow
Wishing for a similar soul
Somewhere out there
I know

Here's a major shift of confidence
I've got everybody in my hands
I don't have to be scared, I know
But I look for a similar soul
It'll come
I just want it to be you

What friends are for

Whenever your life is too hardcore
Let me show you what I am here for
What is this thing I've caught?
I can entertain myself with thoughts
I'm high on my own happiness
I wanna get you out of this mess
And share some of these neurotransmitters
That make me dance, laugh and jitter
It's unfair I am on this cloud
When you just fell down
Let me fix your mental health
Let me make you love yourself
Until you're high like me
I love me, I love everybody and I feel lovely
You can cry, be sad and angry
You can scream and kick me
Please let me make you less bitter
Let me trigger your neurotransmitters
It's been so long since
Your life was ruled by endorphins
But don't throw your love life away with the litter
Cause you need to love yourself

The next part of my history

Your future is suppose to be
The next part of my history
We could share the same enemies
Cause people are jealous of you and me
We could add happy to happy
Cause we would match perfectly

Seven year itch

You couldn't disappoint her more
You couldn't hit her harder
You don't break up until you're sure
You already have someone to use after her

She deserved to know
When things went wrong
But you didn't show
Whatever was going on

You said it was now or never
If I don't leave now, I doubt if I'll ever
Did you ever think about her?
Or were you just too happy you were secure
And glad you aren't alone without her?

Go bananas!

She should be independent
Preferably non religious
She shouldn't mind your female friends
And not be the type that gets jealous

You want to have children
But she should also have a career
She should have her own opinion
Be creative and have her own ideas

You don't like 'em boring
She should be a little nuts
So she can handle your crazy things
And respond likewise cause she's got guts

She should be intelligent
She should fit in your schedule
And have some real friends
When there's guys' night, she has her girls

Boy, I thought I was demanding,
But I have found my match
You're more than outstanding
Like you're the perfect catch

But I saw you and I knew
I have the same wish list
Finally someone who's demanding too
Who likes to know stuff before we kiss

You and I should act like apes
So pick up that phone cause
We can hang at my place
And go bananas

Patience

I hate that I have to be patient and wait
For the day my dreams will match up with my fate
We're young we've still got more time than money
All the time in the world is standing between you and me
You're not in a hurry, your patience is great
You can wait for your dreams to match up with your faith
You're not scared, everything's always okay
I just need to have more faith that it'll come someday

This could happen to you

You haven't really seen me yet
Let me make an impression you won't forget
I am your female equivalent
I am more than you wished for in a girlfriend
I am all this and heaven too
I am what you never thought would happen to you

If I were a man I'd be your best friend
Social, funny, never boring and intelligent
Pick up the phone and call
Otherwise it won't happen at all
I am all this and heaven too
I am what could happen to you

New Friends

Hello my new friends,
Do you believe in coincidence?
Don't you think it's strange our stories crossed,
When I became happy and you got lost?
So our relationships failed
But I'm sure someone will come along to start a new fairytale
I am here to lend a hand
And to give you faith in love again

Hit-or-miss

I'm no friends with maybe
I'm no friends with perhaps
I'm not a fan of we'll see
Or I'll think about that

I want an awnser
I'm the impatient kind
I can be very mature
But you make me lose my mind

So I blurt out
About how I feel
Always when in doubt
I manage to squeel

You wanted to know me
So if you can handle this
It's time to show me
I'm done with the hit-or-miss