If I could mend my lonely friend...

It cracks me up when I hear your story
There's no one out there that can make you happy
There's no one out there to stop you from feeling lonely
You need to understand, you need to see

You don't need another relation-shit
You don't need some guy acting worse than the last one did
You don't need me to tell you you've got it
You need to love yourself a little bit

No one else can fill the void
Alcohol won't fix your soul
You can feel like you're going low
But nothing will have you destroyed
If you love yourself a little more

Wilhelminastraat 56

Oh yes, I must confess I am addicted to this life
You can always call me for some wine if there's sunshine
Remember that night we sat outside and enjoyed the moonlight?
We had overdone the definition of alright
It was heaven, we saw the sun go down
Some old records playing at the background
Our best friends all came around
We manage friendship to the point where it's profound
Our friendship is an everlasting playground

About friends

The easiest things to say
Are the hardest things to do
But even when it doesn't feel okay
I will learn something new

Sometimes you need to tell me
How my role in these things should be
Cause I can lose myself too easily
And forget who I am, slightly

Words would fail to describe
What you mean to my life
Now I know what it feels like
To have someone equal for the first time

You make pieces fall to its place
I can live at an easier pace
You will always love me anyway
So I never have to feel ashamed

I just know whatever I'm going through
Even if I turned my life into a zoo
You just change me with your point of view
And that's what I love about you

Some of you I've known since I was three
I have memories of climbing trees
Being taken of the school rooftop by the police
Or just skateboards and walkie talkies

Pictures capture a time span in an eyewink
Photo albums pass us by
Our hair colors like ink, from black to pink
We're still the same without the dye

Years go by and I'm wondering
Does my brain have the capacity
For so much memories?
Cause I don't want to forget a thing

Life goes by, another festival
So many things I hardly recall
Having a friend like you makes me lucky
Do you realize that at all?

I can't make rain or shine
I'm just your friend if that's fine
So if it's your job or your family
Cry my sweater wet if you need me

I am not the most perfect friend probably
But fate sure has some plans with me
When we go out and laugh all night
I go home and I smile inside

You get me more down to earth than gravity
I'm your beat, you're my melody
We make each other complete
Without you I wouldn't be me

Just some drinks at your place is so nice
It's the best place to go to when I close my eyes
With you as my best friend everything's alright
I think of you and I smile inside

I’m not that bad…

Some days I talk too much about myself
I can’t keep my mouth shut and I kiss and tell
Or a tiny problem makes me act like I’m in hell

Sometimes I’m arrogant and I love myself
I pop my collar and act a little too swell
Tell me I’m sick and need to get well

But I’m the one you can call at night
I won’t hang up until your tears have dried
I will make you laugh when you feel sad
I might not be perfect but I’m not that bad

Some months my finances are a mess
I can’t pay my bills and get overstressed
Cause I buy shoes ‘til my creditcard screams S.O.S.

There are some things hard to confess
I like to think that I’m the best
But I can cry if I don’t understand SPSS

You should know I’m not the girl next door
Call me up if you refuse to be bored
I will help you out if you’re going mad
I might not be perfect but I’m not that bad

It’s hard to go out on a date
I take my time and always get late
Don’t get mad if I make you wait

This other thing people always hate:
I know best, no need to debate
Someday I’ll admit you were right, keep the faith!

So if you don’t mind my big ego
Or my problems to have a steady cash flow
If I can call you about SPSS every minute or so
Or if I can’t admit you are right and you can let it go
If you don’t mind me putting on a show
Or if it’s ok I was late like an hour or so
I love you more than anything in the world, I just wanted you to know

Push and pull

How can you expect to stay reliable
If you act so undefinable?
If you don't make up your mind, I will

Don't wanna put a knife at your throat and force it out
But if I know I can have a sky without clouds
Why would I want to wake up with doubts?

And I know I always make the same mistake with men
I run you over again and again
Maybe it's time for you to teach me my lesson

Then again, I just wanna go with the flow
And you've got this feeling you can't let go
Where it's coming from, you don't know

You make it complicated when I feel relaxed and sure
You leave me confused and insecure
Please think about this, I want to see it cured

As soon as we've made plans you need to change your agenda
Are you afraid to get stuck in a relationship and I'll make you surrender?
I'm not like that at all, but I've got a life and an agenda too, remember?

I think you should think hard about what you feel and see
And explain to yourself how you want this to be
Cause you can't push me away and pull me back in constantly

Love economy

I aim to please
I help you move
I do your groceries
I cook for your friends
What do you do for me?

I take you to the hospital
I listen to all your stories
I clean your house
I do your laundry
What do you do for me?

I aim to please
I feed your cat
I buy sexy undies
I fix your TV
What do you do for me?

I take you to the doctor
I fix your bike
I fix your computer
I sew your buttons
What do you do for me?

You can always count on me
Anytime, anyday, I'm ready
I adjust my plans
To be with you in the weekend
What do I do for me?

When are my needs met?
I always give more than I get
I make this mistake again and again
Is this just the way I am?
My best friend says that's what's so special about me
But it doesn't feel right, cause even love is economy
For every little bit I give I do expect something in return
Will I ever learn?

The colors of E

Purple is the color of my shirt when I met you
When you asked me for a kiss but I wouldn't let you
It was a dark day for you that day
Your circumstances had led you astray
We met again you made apologies for the other night
I thought you looked kinda hot wearing white
I started to like those blond curls
But that night you didn't join me and the girls
Next I wore dark blue jeans when you hit my behind
I was offended, saw you and then didn't mind
I took you back to my little white house
My colorful living room with my white couch
We danced until our faces got red
And ended up in my newly bought bed
Pink is the color of your face when you shine
And blue is the color of your eyes
I could say the rest is history
But too much white wine is taking up my memory
The truth is I can't bring to mind
When I saw your house for the first time
I just ended up in this colorful world
Made by the hands of these blond curls
It's nice to see how you rebuild the whole place
And let the color of love fill up the space
Green is the color your kitchen used to be
And your eyes are so blue it's heavenly

Faint

Week days can be boring
Filled with longing
Yearning, aching
Desiring, craving
Pining, lingering
Desperate wanting
Wanting too much of never enough
My whole body tingles when I stand before you
When I see you the head rush is so great
I sometimes feel like I could faint

Revision

I know exactly what lessons to learn from you
This is a challenge and an opportunity for me too
Sometimes you have to learn to let go of the past
Let go of thoughts that didn't make love last
It's okay for you to start to analyse
Think about yourself, have yourself revised
Hats off to all the good in you
I can learn more than just a thing or two
I tend to over analyse almost everything
I think about thinking, I talk about talking
You're so relaxed, you can enjoy yourself
Yet you're also willing to revise your mental health
Joyfull, willing, happy and modest
Learning, open, funny and honest
Put those good traits you've got in a frame
It's okay to be proud of yourself everyday
Did anyone ever tell you, your heart is so kind
You're the kind of guy that has eyes for the blind
You're my one and only lottery ticket
We're heading for nothing less than fanatastic

Glue

You're the perpetrator
The belly butterfly creator
How could I ever have a bad day?
I hear your voice and it's all okay
You're the offender
Let's mix our hearts in a blender
You're my kind of wonderful
You make the sun shine in my soul
There's nothing else I'd rather do
Than stick to you like glue

Running on Eddy

You could be near, you could be far
You're mostly stuck inside my heart
It doesn't matter where you are
I feel you even when we're apart
My heart jumps and palpitates
When you call me on the phone
Knowing what love awaits
I can feel it in my bones
You're in every heart chamber I've got
You're in every vein and artery
You're the oxygen in my blood
My engine is running on Eddy

You suck me dry

The STD that led to your infertility
I'm keeping your secret safe with me
Your father in law is a pedophile
How I've wanted to call the cops all the while
The abortion from the cheating man
Your secret is safe in my hands
You're seeing prostitutes while your wife dies
I won't tell a soul about her lonely cries
You've got bulimia and special therapy
I'm keeping your secret safe with me
A husband, a child and a lover on the side
Sometimes you all just suck me dry
It's nice to be everybody's best friend
But when will your secrets ever end?
It's nice for you I'm not that judgmental
But that doesn't mean I won't judge at all
Sometimes I wanna slap you all in the face
Take hold of your problems and make a change
I can't tell a soul about any of this
This week it just cracks me up

Bizarre

Sometimes things turn so bizarre
We had been checking each other from up far
I saw you and thought you weren't that bad
You didn't seem to be my type at all
I thought you'd be nice for a kiss or two
I never thought I'd fall this hard for you

Intruder

Sometimes I feel like I'm an intruder
Everywhere I look I stumble upon her
Her stuff is still lying around your house
She needs to drop by when I'm around
She calls you up when we want to go to bed
Right after we made love very passionate
Her stuff's in the bathroom closet, mine in the shower cabin
Her contact lenses are still in your trash bin
It wouldn't feel weird to have the keys to your place
If it didn't seem like she only just left you yesterday

Dear Eddy

You can't find the words to explain
What's going on inside your brain
You're just talking in pictures
Thinking in shapes and colors
If I were your head you would be heard
I would give all those feelings words
Behind that door, there's another door
Think harder to get to the core
You just need to ask yourself why
Why are these thoughts behind those blue eyes?
Sometimes you need to dig in to dig out
Let me give you the words to say it out loud
Too good to be true and such a head-rush
So fast, so soon, I understand the distrust
You think: "This can't be happening to me"
I feel just the same, you're my ecstasy
I'm in your face, overwhelming and wow
But please don't forget the power of now
Just sit back and enjoy the ride dear Eddy
Let it overcome and trust me

Hold that thought

Seize the moment
Hold that thought
Don't go anywhere
Let's feel a lot

Let's be appalling
And change the definition
Of hardcore loving
Let's be each other's everything

Determine my heartbeat
Determine my thoughts
Be hot and sweet
Let's get distraught

But whatever you do: hold that thought!

The speed of love

There you go
You're making memories with me
We ain't slow
We're going at a great velocity
It feels good
It's only weird if you stop to think about it
But who says I should
I just wanna enjoy every little bit

Burn

My fingers burn when I think of touching your hair
My eyes flame when I look at you
My heart burns for you everywhere
I don't want to, but have to
I have to wait
I hate to wait
Cause you think it's better
I just want us to be together
Do you know how this feels?
It feels like there's something wrong with head over heels

Open up the lit if you dare

No objection
To my fear of rejection
I can't take it
If you hold back a little bit
I know I am too upfront
If you don't want what I want
I've got nothing left to say
If I don't have it my way
Why would you want to keep me away from you?
It feels like I want this more than you do
Are you afraid to open up the lit
And see me take a run for it?
Do you think we're heading for disaster?
This fire I've got won't extinguish faster
Even if you're in all my seconds
If you're in all my atoms, all my moments
I'm like a dog with a bone
I won't let go, don't leave me alone
You're in my heart, you're in my head
You're in my veins, you're in my sweat
You're this junk's next shot
You're my high, you're my god
You're the itch I can't get rid of
These are the moments I don't like being in love
My love won't fade, if I see you always
If I could see you a lifetime I wouldn't wanna miss a day

Fired

Sometimes I doubt if I'm allowed
To be on this clowd
With all the stuff I lie about

I lie awake
About the mess I make
I always wait 'til everything's at stake

I should have seen this coming
I thought my job was boring
How could I not do anything?

I had a feeling premature
This is more than I can endure
I am so fired for sure

Splendid

I don't mind if your snoring awakens me
Cause I just love to see you sleep so peacefully
I like to see you busy
I watch you cook and enjoy you secretly
When you think you're unattended
That glow you've got turns overly splendid
My heart becomes radiant
I know what I need, what I want
That smile you've got, those eyes so blue
I have been saving all my dreams for you

Ed

I wanna crawl inside you
In your arms and in your heart
It seems your eyes are becoming more blue
Every moment I spend with you

You are my greatest adventure
I never thought you'd be like this
You're sincere, funny, beautifull and pure
More than my every wish

Let our love grow tall
I am in your bed, in your head
I am running out of brain chemicals
Cause I am high on you, Ed

Can't promise forever twice?

It feels so weird sometimes
I can't promise forever twice
If the first time already turned out to be a lie
I wanna give it a chance
But I'm scared of the consequences
I want to prevail instead of fail in this romance
I really thought he was my man
I promised him a one life stand
Four and a half years later I was alone again
So if I go head over heels
If I tell you how this really feels
Will these words and promises remain my ideals?
As always the case
Answers will come if I wait
I just have to believe in myself and keep the faith

Believe

Do you believe in love?
Do you believe that one person can always be enough?
You can fall in love everywhere
There's enough people and enough chemistry out there
It's a choice you make
It's a chance and a risk you take
Love makes blind
Maybe a year from now I don't remember what I liked about you the first time
But I like to believe in possibilities
I like to believe in the way you look at me
I like to believe that
A year from now I will stare at you when you're distracted
And feel my heart jump when you notice it and smile back