My best friend (1987-1997)

I've known you since you were a little lid
We used to do everything together
Everything you did, I did,
But now you think your boyfriend is better

Now I'm not important anymore
How could this be?
I'm just the girl who lives nextdoor
Have you forgotten about me?

And yes, maybe I'm jealous
I'm just afraid of losing a friend
Something has come between us
I don't want our friendship to end

Please cut me some slack
We go way back
Like I don't feel things like that
But you can't blame me for losing track

I've always been around
No matter what your life was about
When a new boyfriend was bound
I was still waiting for you to come back down

Years from now
You can still touch me somehow
I find myself waiting again
Waiting for you to say I am still you best friend

Wake without you

Do I miss you or just the thought of being in your arms?
Is it really you or just feeling safe and warm?
I don't wanna get stuck in this
But don't let me out of your kiss
If I could go back in time
To one of those moments you were still mine
Cause I don't wanna wake without you
I want to stay in this dream

Paper, rock, scissors

What if the paper beats the scissors?
What if the rock beats the paper?
You don't deserve to have one of my thoughts
You don't deserve her

What if I'm winning from losing?
I shouldn't care about what you deserve or not
I should be stronger and overcome this thing
And let the scissors beat the rock

Material

You've made a memory with me
I'm not yet sure of the category
I don't feel like it was me
I felt wanted, but also slutty
I wanted your body
You were funny and friendly
But you dropped a bomb on me
Your truth came out so suddenly
You have a girl and wanted one thing only
Like I would have considered the possibility
Of you being boyfriend material for me

Rebound girl

If there was one thing I could erase
It would be your inhumanity
That night, those words, alone in bed at your place
Those thoughts shouldn't belong to me
You've forgotten all that you've said
You put things in my head I don't deserve
You have no idea about any of that
You don't remember the torture
I cry, but I have no regrets
You aren't one of my best memories
I never think "what if we never met?"
But you shattered me to pieces
Maybe you were right in the end
You and I weren't meant te be a couple
I don't even want to be friends
I don't want you to see me struggle
Sometimes my thoughts still get caught in this twirl
You've found someone else to make you happy
I don't like to be called the rebound girl
It was real to me

De eenzaamheid

Je was er wel, maar nooit genoeg
Nooit op de manier die ik eigenlijk vroeg
Je leerde mij al op jonge leeftijd
De daadwerkelijke betekenis van eenzaamheid
Je kan alleen maar praten over dat ik jou niet begrijp
Is het zo moeilijk om gewoon te houden van mij?