Dad

I am like you in so many ways
I remember every letter you wrote me
Every word is in my head to this day

Like when you wrote me if I’d ever marry
You would be the absentee
All just because you were so mad at me

I remember all the tears I cried
For not living up to your expectations
I will carry them with me the rest of my life

There were times with bad grades
Teenage behavior and sleepless nights
Do I still have to pay for those mistakes?

She's such a striver said my professor
But you don't know who I am
Cause you said this can't be about my daughter

But you are my mirror in life
I’ve learned to forgive mistakes
Cause resentful is not what I want to be like

You will walk me down the aisle when I marry
Cause if I would hold the past against you
I would do the same thing you did to me

Toen (deel 2)

Psychologie geloven jullie niet in
Praten over mijn gevoel heeft geen zin
Nu zijn jullie soms zo kwetsbaar
Is de wereld zo groot en naar
Nu heb ik mijn eigen grote mensen bestaan
Met hypotheek, crisis en op de tocht staande baan
Ik mis de tijd dat ik dacht:
Jullie hebben de waarheid in pacht
Toen jullie nog op een voetstuk stonden
Dat ik vond dat jullie alles konden
Ik had veel meer rust in mijn kop
Toen ik dacht: zij lossen alles op
Zij kunnen mij altijd redden
Met hun hulp kom ik altijd verder
Het is alweer zo lang geleden
Dat jullie de wereld begrepen
Ik zie jullie ver beneden
Jullie leven in het verleden
Niets is meer zoals toen
Ik moet alles zelf doen
De rollen zijn nu omgedraaid
Ik leg jullie uit hoe de wind waait
Waarom de wolken verdwijnen
Hoe de aarde draait
En wanneer de zon gaat schijnen

De Strijd

Jij bent zelf verantwoordelijk voor wat je doet
Wat ik ook zeg, het is toch nooit goed
Omdat je bij mij niet voor de oplossing zijn moet
Toch reageer je dat op mij af

Je bent changrijnig en veeleisend
Terwijl je zelf helemaal niet zo'n goeie vriendin bent
Je wil mij een spiegel voor houden, terwijl jij jezelf niet kent
Je kan de waarheid waarschijnlijk niet aan en dat noemt mij laf!

Ik ben moe van de strijd
Omdat jij nooit begrijpt
Hoe jij het leven leidt
Dat is niet normaal

Je bent berekenend
Jaloers, wraaklustig en wantrouwend
Zo sta je allom bekend
Ondanks waarschuwingen pikte ik het allemaal

Iedereen vindt je hard
En als het lot je tart
Gedij jij bij gedeelde smart
Dus doe je gemeen tegen mijn vrienden of tegen mij

Ik kan er niet meer tegen
Ik wil je uit mijn leven
Ik begrijp waarom jij alleen bent gebleven
Hechte vriendschap is niets jou, zoals jezelf ook al eens zei

Vergeven

In slaap, in slaap
Ik val in een diepe slaap
Totdat ik niet meer wakker wordt

Kwaad, zo kwaad
Ik ben toch zo kwaad
Waarom komen wij tijd tekort?

Ik wil nog even
Blijven leven
Het is nog lang niet af

Ik zie je staan
Weet wat ik fout heb gedaan
En ik neem het mee in mijn graf

Ik wil nog even
Genieten van dat jij mij hebt vergeven
Oh als ik het mijzelf toch eens vergaf

Queen M

I can't begin to explain your complexity
You have the most complicated personality
You've cost me so much negative energy
Now that you're futher away I can breathe

You are so harsh, you punish those
Those who dare to come a bit close
Those who try to love you the most

Am I your friend because I know you so well?
Because you're afraid of all I could tell?
Cause I've seen you without your hard shell?

Cause I don't feel our friendship is based upon
The same things I've had with others friends for so long
Your whole idea of friendship is wrong

I am tired of your mistrust and suspicion
You question my motives when there's no reason
You punish me for your own bad decisions

I'm tired of proving myself constantly
I am best friends with some friends since I was three
If I was really bad, they wouldn't be

Friendship with you requires me
To show my sincerity constantly
As you force me to prove I am trustworthy

Why can't you trust yourself and believe
That even if I would be a liar you'd still be
And you could still move on and get over me

My mistakes

I needed this time alone
To figure out the world
While I was on my own
I figured out my twirls

I never thought you were the man
Until I stumbled upon some jerks
Cause from falling in love with them
I found out how love works

Where would I be without my mistakes?
I wouldn't be half as human
I guess this is what it takes
To become who I really am

Inzage

Zintuigen bespelen
Instinct strelen
Je hunkert, je smacht
Maar de zoveelste nacht
Met daarna niks
Enkel een quick fix
Geeft inzage
In levensvragen

De Jacht

De leegte als je er eenmaal bent
En het leek nog wel zo mooi
Maar de uitkomst was onbevredigend
De jacht is spannender dan het bezit van de prooi

Your visitor

Just a phase
I can't catch in a phraze
No words can describe those days

I was your visitor
I got the code to your door
But it only lasted so short

Was it really me?
Now it seems so hard to believe
You once had me on my knees

Now I'm with the right man
It feels like I'm home again
And like that wasn't really me back then

I was your visitor
You had me beg for more
For something physical which I thought was love for sure

My body responds to you
But not what it wants to do
My hearts belongs to someone true

I can't believe that was me
You had me addicted like a junky
But now I'm back where I belong with someone who loves me truely

Keuzes

Zit je kop zo diep in het zand of slaap je gewoon zo vast?
Dat het lot je altijd zo verrast
Zie je geen kansen of heb je gewoon elke keer te lang gewacht?
Dat je nooit eens de laatste bent die lacht
Keuzes voor een baan leiden tot een salaris
Dat eens okay leek en nu te weinig is
Nooit een back-up, nergens een reserve
Gaat het stuk, is er geen noodvoorraad en lijm je de scherven
Wordt wakker, haal je kop uit het zand
Het leven is geen verrassing, want keuzes die leiden tot jouw lot heb je zelf in de hand

Head up your ass

This is not the way to live
One day I won't give
You're always running short
On emotional support

How long will you last
With your head up your ass?
How far must you go wrong
Before you realize you can't go on

My old father

I doubt if you still love her, or just accept her by your side
You're still together, but you're marriage ain't right
She doesn't want to lose you and you accept her fight
I know all about it, cause mom and I look alike

You've told me many times you're not afraid to die
Why would you, if you're seventy-five
But I think you're waiting for my life to be fine
I think I'm what keeps you alive

Dad

I can't change the choices I've made
If I'm late, I'll always be late
If time ain't on our side
I can't turn the tides

So many things you'll never see
Cause you were 47 back in '83
I am 28, you're 75
I don't wanna live wondering how long you'll be alive

Broken hearts and nails

The Western myth
Of a life well lived
Where everyday should be a gift

This is the fairytale
With broken hearts and nails
Where succes fails

My happiness got crushed
Cause I think too much
If I save me, you'll get stuck

I can barely believe the life that awaits
I have a superman who loves me, with a house that's great
And now I feel bad about leaving my dearest roommate

Thorny rose

I am a damaged girl with a past
Every time I get happy I wonder if it'll last
I lost my faith in men
I always think I'll end up alone again

Who dares to love me?
Who dares to love this thorny rose?
It looks to lovely
But it hurts when you come to close

Promise me no promises
I drive myself crazy with my thoughts
I shouldn't give in to this
These crazy ideas and these plots

Can you teach me how to breathe again?
Can you restore my faith in men?
Can you love me without running away?
Accept that I'm crazy and still choose to stay?

Mental criminal record

Do I still like myself after the crimes I committed for attention?
I am a prisoner of my own mind waiting to be released from detention
I am mentally resigned when I am looking for love and affection
Didn't momma teach wrong from right regarding sexual attraction?

I have gone down the wrong road looking for confirmation
It's nice you want to f*ck me all but I need a true love relation
How could I let myself slip down this slippery slope?
How could I have lost myself and lost my last bit of hope?

I hung around too long, it became too obvious
I was that girl pretending to be looking for "just lust"
Everyone could see I was surrounded by loneliness
I felt everyone looked at me like I was a waste and a mess

And I'm ashamed to look in the mirror cause what I'll see
Is my mental criminal record and my drugs and sex CV
But I can't turn back time, in order to be happy
I must learn I can't love anyone if I can't love or forgive me

Magic

I believe in karma, cause revenge is not done
All you who hurt me, will be the lonely ones
Cause I have a man who believes in me
Who knows my darkest thoughts and doesn't leave

We don't have to be perfect, cause we're good enough
We finally understand the mathmatics of love
Searching for perfection is wrong
Cause we have had this connection all along
You are the closest to magic I will ever come

Dear me

Dear me,
I've become all that I wanted to be
I am freed of childhood bullies
I have won the quest for popularity
I wanna be the best friend I could be
I wanna hear all your stories
But it's too much to help you all personally

Dear you,
I've been searching for the best
I've put put myself to the test
I've had you all in my bed
All who thought I was a nice piece of flesh
Now I can say I've no interest
Cause true love has answerd my quest

The truth is right before you

Sometimes I just want to flee
I am ready for a holiday away from me
I wanna be the best friend I could be

But sometimes you all wear me out
His behavior is without a doubt
What else can we talk about?

We overanalyzed, you're out of your mind
It's no use talking about it, if you're blind
I have reached the point I want to be unkind

I want to say it to your face
You wanna catch him, he only wants to chase
When he gets you, he'll go away, you hope he stays

You wait for him at the bar, you stare at you phone
Isn't it better to go home alone
Than to feel bad about letting yourself go?

Your talk about him is a lot of hot air
You're creating something that isn't there
You think the sex is special, but he doesn't care

When he has had enough, he'll ignore you
He isn't looking for love, he doesn't adore you
He doesn't lie about it either, the truth is right before you

What friends are for

Don't be afraid to lose that facade
To show me a glimpse of your true face
I am your friend and I am here
Not just for the laughter, but also the tears

Cause we all have the same questions on the inside
Is this my best life? Am I living it right?
Is true love that fire and chemistry?
Or is it that best friend, always reliable, but not always as sexy?

We question what job to choose
Why we fall in love with fools, freaks and ghouls
Will we ever know what it feels like?
To have everything all right and live a quiet life

We all feel lonely in our own way
Some feel bad over loves they had and others miss their mother on their birthday
Our hopes and fears are all the same in the end
But for some it's called the mortgage and for others the rent

Is there really anyone in true times of need?
Who can you really trust when it feels like we're all indiscreet?
Some of us need to learn more than one lesson
The truth about friendship and showing compassion

Even though we don't always act like we should
We're there, we care, and our intentions are good
Some of us judge too harshly and some are too sweet
You may get a pat on the head when a kick in the butt is what you need

Some may take you down, when you want to be taken in
Some may judge you hard because they recognize their own sins
Be yourself, no need to pretend, no need to act tough
We’re all just humans looking for warmth, acceptance and love

Someday we’ll combine loving and caring with good advice
So we can give others what they need because we’ve turned old and wise
But in the meantime we all have to learn things trial and error
We fall and get up again, we learn and we mend, that's what we're friends for

Please forgive me if I can’t make the sun shine
I’m just your friend if that’s fine
We’re imperfect, but we’re worth it
Let me make my mistakes and I’ll embrace yours every bit

It’s a struggle to admit, but as long as we don’t quit
Years from now we’ll laugh about it
Weather I adore you, I bore you or our friendship is unsure
We fall and get up again, we learn and we mend, that’s what friends are for

Snow

I walked to you in the snow
It seems like ages ago
We said cheerio

I'm gonna see you again
My most cheerfull friend
You will be back in Holland

But I will come to visit
I'll have to wait for my paycheck
Then I will book my ticket

It seems like ages ago
I remember how I felt walking in the snow
But you cheered me up, that's why I love you so

Cross my heart

My emotions and thoughts surprise me
I think I am reacting like a baby
But you blocked me on facebook, so what are you?
You're nothing but a childish man, a baby too
I don't wanna be resentful, I thought I had matured
I thought I was past this, my ego had been cured
It doesn't hurt, I just don't think you deserve her
Some how you should suffer like I suffered
After all this time I still feel so much hate inside
I cross my heart and hope you die

Perfectionist

There's never enough time in this world to do all the things I like
There's never enough hours in one day, my schedule's too tight

I wanna see all my friends once a week, work hard and go sporting
I guess my life is what's happening while I'm planning

Sometimes I get too tired of my own unrest and stress
I imagine five years from now it will be a lot less

But by then I'll still be the same, this feeling won't leave
Cause for a perfectionist there's always something new to achieve

From one liar to another

I lied to you and I was sorry
I bought you presents and more honesty
You said you never thought I'd be like that
Our friendship had a crack

I kept secrets, you said I was a coward
You spent all day crying at work
You doubted there would be a day
We could put this behind us and it would be okay

And I support you
Even when you fall for wrong men
I'm there for you
If you have a financial problem

I support you
When you have an abortion
I'm there for you
When you go back to him for more torture

I make our house into a nice home
I clean your towels, I cook you food
I'm there whenever you feel alone
I'm there when you're in a bad mood

I help you solliciting
My friends are your friends
I never ask for anything
I live by your demands

Now I found out who's the real liar here
You steal from my friends,
You're still wrapped around his finger
You make me watch my back, drop my stadards
I lost respect for your adventures

My better half

I gave it some thought, I gave it a try
What my life would be like, without you by my side
It wasn't that bad, it was alright

But each time I saw you, I knew
What I thought had died inside, grew
I don't want any other man in my life but you

I thought my feelings weren't like before
I just cared a lot about you, nothing more
There were times I couldn't be more sure

But then I saw you and I felt butterflies
I wondered what my life would be like with you by my side
And now I know, it's fucking alright

You and I are where I wanna be
Great lovers and a great team
You are the better half of me

I love you

The nights are dark, feelings are strong
I don't wanna wake up, wondering where I belong
I know exactly where I left us
I don't wanna pick up from there
We know where we went wrong
Can we always stay this aware?
You are my best friend for ever long

B.

And I wish I could say I don't care what you do
I wish I could say I don't care who'd marry you
But deep down inside I only want one man
To be the father of my children
To be the on for me
Come catch me, Berry

Poepie

You notice when I cry myself asleep quietly
Cause you know everything about me
When I'm without make-up you say I'm sexy
You always know exactly what I need

I feel your love and want to know
If we still have a chance at growing old
Or is my mind like a wolf in sheep's clothes
And are my feelings misleading us both?

You're so sweet, your love so pure
You make me feel very safe and secure
Cause you're so smart and mature
You're heading for a decent future

You embrace my thoughts, even when they're wrong
You accept my words, all my slips of the tongue
I can totally be me, cause you're so strong
You never take the lead, but you'll always carry on

And I want so bad for you to be the man
There ain't a thing you don't understand
You will always be my best friend
I wish we could be in love again

I feel like I'm the wolf in disguise
I swallowed you whole, cause you're so nice
Neither of us knows what to do with our lives
But we don't want to break our heart twice

Waiting

Sayings like
Good things come to those who wait
Patience is a virtue
Is what I'm always told
Can anybody tell me if they're really true
Or if they're mostly really old?

I've climbed the highest mountains
The biggest oceans, I've seen them all
I make a wish with every star that falls
With every birthday candle I blow
I stopped saying prayers 20 years ago
I want to believe in something

(N)Ever?

Have I given up on love or has love given up on me?
No more fantasies, no more dreams, nothing left to believe
If you can't be the one, than who will ever be?

My dear ego (for M&D)

I need someone to keep me on this cloud
And it can't be you cause you always let me down

For my addiction, you give just enough
But never the amount to fully feel loved

You only need me a little bit
You need me enough to keep me addicted

You're more costly than diamonds, more precious than gold
But the sorrow you bring is a sight to behold

I tried you once and thought that I could let you go
I tried you twice and then you owned my soul

I lie to myself to keep this high
I let you possess me and make me blind

The crimes I commit for your narcotic charms
Seem worth the pleasure of being in your arms

I forget my morals and how I was raised
You are my conscience, you teach me your ways

You'll take everything: my guilt, my pride
Cause I'd sacrifice anything to have you by my side

I'm addicted to the feeling that you feed
I'm addicted to the attention I think I need

Tell me that I'm sexy so I think I'm sexy
Tell me that you love me so I can love me

I tell myself you're the only one that can do this
But if it weren't for you I'd find someone else to miss

Cause it's not really you that I'm missing here
It's the feeling of someone loving me dear

I'm addicted to getting attention and cheap thrills
I'm addicted to escaping from work, stress and bills

My ego, my dear ego needs to be fed
My dear ego begs to be misled

I beg to differ: this is mind over matter
Get myself together and kick you out of my head

Happy Single

It's a struggle, unsexy to admit
But the happy single is bullshit
Nice job, nice life, so much I've achieved
I am so ready, where is he?

So what?

So you had to make a mistake to find out how the world works
So you had to fall flat on your face to regain your self-worth
So what?

So many people will never even figure out any of this
They don't make the mistakes but won't learn what life really is
We do!

So you won't become a rocket scientist or Miss Universe
You'll become you, a supersonic, cool you everyone wishes they were
Praise you!

Gratification

I told myself this was adventurous
I got myself in risky situations
But mostly I just made myself a mess
This won't get me gratification

All this only shows
I took you home with me to feel sexy
To flatter myself and my ego
But all I really am is lonely

No one can fill my heart
Treating me like an object
For that I am too smart
I deserve respect

From now on I'll treat myself right
No more sad weekends
With all the wrong guys
Only wanting to get into my pants

Perhaps

Do I believe in coincidence?
How come it can become so intense?
Was it a sign for me to see?
Cause I lost faith in love lately

Did you stop by to show me that
There's still someone out there perhaps
And someday I'll surely find my match
I just have to wait, he'll cross my path

Half

Do you see me smile?
Do you see me laugh?
I could have been with you
Doing it half

I could have been stuck
In a loveless relationship
With pornstar fucks
Waiting for you to get it

It's surely for the best we parted
I don't wanna be with someone cold-hearted
Someone who doesn't understand
What it means to be my boyfriend

Does she make you happy?
She sure does it for me
I never really met her, but when I do
I'll thank her for saving me from you

Not for me

Even though I'm horny and I'm bored
I don't want to be your last resort
When everyone says no you call me
I refuse to live in the face of mediocrity

Do I really want someone like you to want me?
How I wish you had an epiphany
But then again, you were meant to be blind
Maybe you'll start thinking once you're left behind

Forget you knew me
I taught you about infidelity
You drive me nuts with your insecurity
You lack a spine, that's fine, but not for me