Nn

Who am I, to need you when I'm down?
But where are you, when I need you around?
The choice is yours and I feel and see
I can't force you into my needs

And I try less black and white
But I don't see you fight
It doesn't feel like you really try
It doesn't seem you care or cry

My dear body

Oh my dear body what's going on?
Haven't I been good for you al along?
Didn't I make sure you could be strong?
But maybe you're not

I lie awake with pain that won't go
The doctor says it's too soon to know
I have to wait and see how it goes
I drive myself insane with my thoughts

A beginner's guide to relationships

It took a while to see you were on my side
You were always right
But your words damaged my pride

It was a compliment in disguise
When you realized
I deserved a better guy

You're not that far away from psychology
You think I know me
But I was blinded by your XTC

You understood more than I knew
You saw straight through
The endless nights had me fooled

Cause you wake up and you're in bed
With someone who is too different
I read books, you mountainbike in the weekend

My compliments
You were right in the end
And brought me closer to my true boyfriend

I hope you have found a girl
Who completes your world
Cause you deserve her

What to do?

It’s been taken care of

It’s been swept under the rug

No one really knows this

Except those left of us

 

Should we remain silent

No talking allowed

Cause if we start a riot

We’ll all be out

 

I want to speak up

But I know if I’ll try

It won’t change a thing

You’ll just hang me out to dry

If you would have been honest

Straight to my face

I would have had the chance

To leave with grace


But I guess for now

I'll wait

Lego

From a distance it seems so simple
Like a floor filled with Lego
I'll lift you up and put you down
Right where I think you should go

It never works when I explain
You feel offended and upset
You start to act against the grain
I wonder how far you'll ever get

How far will get with the mirror
You act like you know best
Behind that is someone so insecure
Will you ever see yourself like all the rest?

Cause if you'd see that, you'd know
You'd be happy not upset
You would know where to go
You'd know your place amongst the Lego

KH

Trying to get a grip on the process of the process
But doing so without lossless and costless
All the problems we have at the office with the office

But in the end it doesn't matter
We'll get through the day
Even if I won't type one letter
I'll get paid

A careful enquiry about our true efficiency
You need a comma and a dot so you call me
Is that really why you hired me with my Masters Degree?

But in the end it doesn't matter
My career won't be saved
If I work harder or better
I'm still underpaid

It's become an idiom around here, I quote:
"Thanks for the call about the fax on the email about the note"
I'm dying for a solution or an antidote

But in the end it doesn't matter
If we'll get Process Therapy
I don't believe elsewhere is better
Every office has it's dirty laundry

Small town show

I thought I'd never survive
I thought this small town was my life
That I couldn't leave behind
The life that I had in mind

I thought I'd get bored
If no one knows me at the store
I'd be shopping groceries
With no one saying hi to me

Feeling like a big somebody
With people talking about me
What is it that you wanna say?
You don't like me and my ways?

And then there's the old friends
To cling to during weekends
Getting drunk at the same bar
It defines who we are

Everyone blames the sea
As a reason not to leave
They can't go without the sand
And that's how the community stands

How can I leave everyone that made me?
How can I leave everyone that hates me?
How can I leave everyone I know?
And move over this whole small town show?

But no more common ground
No more the talk of the town
And whenever I come around
I can leave without a sound

You can pass me by without hello
Talk about me and I won't know
Cause I feel freed now I let go
And left the small town show

Pressure free

I would love to be pressure free
From the weight of nothing that bares down on me
How can I assimilate 2000 years
When I can't even deal with everyday fears?

I was close to marriage and I was close to slut
But in the middle of both I said: so what!
Gotta stop thinking like a shrink
Gotta listen to my own promises

Oh wake up you there's nothing more
What do you think you're waiting for?
Wake up you there's nothing more!
But if I'm waiting for nothing
Than what am I doing?
And if I'm waiting for nothing
What am I doing?

Mr. Easy Going?

You want to know
But don't really want to face it
You open yourself up
But can't change the tiniest bit

You ask about it
But don't want a real answer
If you guys fit
Tell me how you intend to keep her?

For Inge

I go where you go

My soul may have flown

But I won't leave you alone

Because your heart is my home


You will be in a daze

Every face will be my face

Every place will be my place

I will never pass this age


Your tears are becoming a sea

I will only have a past

That ended with a car crash

Forever nineteen


(Timo, rust zacht)

What if, maybe, uncertainty

Let go
Of all the no's
This is the yes
Of happiness

No what ifs
Nothing negative
Open up to this
To the positive

No fight
This time it's right
Open your mind
And let the light inside

Feel free
From the maybe's
You will see
Your certainties

D.

And so we meet again today
So many things we need to say
But we shall both learn in time
Your guess is as good as mine

I may not bend your life's ways
Maybe things will remain the same
It's good to see we still flame
We still haven't gone insane

And we know behind those eyes
Are minds lost in disguise
So open your arms and you'll be found
Open your heart and friends come around

The adult

Fate wanted to know if my mind is agile
So it tested my faith for a while
To see if I could stand you so fragile
To see if my emotions are versatile

Now I am big and you are small
I didn't want to see you fall
I need you to be on your pedestal
But now I have to be the adult

Another doctor checking your chart
You cry in the hospital ward
Your body is falling apart
Seeing you grow old is so hard

You don't understand the world today
All that you knew has gone away
I have to stand up for you and explain
I have to hold your hand and lead the way

I always thought you knew it all
But now I am mature and you are small
I can feel you've become emotional
Now daddy's little doll has become an adult

Accept

I must accept the fact
that you'll never accept
No matter how I react
It's never what you expect
Everytime I work hard
for a little of your respect
You'll raise the bar
But if I expect you to know and do better
I'd be just like you are