Dad

If I cry, I have to admit

I still love you a little bit

Even though you hurt my life

And I don’t want you in it

Is it selfish I can’t stand

To see you sick and hold your hand

I wanna run away as fast as I can

This doesn’t fit in my plans

Is it wrong that I am angry

Cause you’re not allowed to need me

But I also feel guilty

If I treat you like you treat me

Am I allowed to feel sad

For all the times I wished you were dead

Can I still be mad

For all the times you weren’t there?