Happy Single

It's a struggle, unsexy to admit
But the happy single is bullshit
Nice job, nice life, so much I've achieved
I am so ready, where is he?

So what?

So you had to make a mistake to find out how the world works
So you had to fall flat on your face to regain your self-worth
So what?

So many people will never even figure out any of this
They don't make the mistakes but won't learn what life really is
We do!

So you won't become a rocket scientist or Miss Universe
You'll become you, a supersonic, cool you everyone wishes they were
Praise you!

Gratification

I told myself this was adventurous
I got myself in risky situations
But mostly I just made myself a mess
This won't get me gratification

All this only shows
I took you home with me to feel sexy
To flatter myself and my ego
But all I really am is lonely

No one can fill my heart
Treating me like an object
For that I am too smart
I deserve respect

From now on I'll treat myself right
No more sad weekends
With all the wrong guys
Only wanting to get into my pants

Perhaps

Do I believe in coincidence?
How come it can become so intense?
Was it a sign for me to see?
Cause I lost faith in love lately

Did you stop by to show me that
There's still someone out there perhaps
And someday I'll surely find my match
I just have to wait, he'll cross my path

Half

Do you see me smile?
Do you see me laugh?
I could have been with you
Doing it half

I could have been stuck
In a loveless relationship
With pornstar fucks
Waiting for you to get it

It's surely for the best we parted
I don't wanna be with someone cold-hearted
Someone who doesn't understand
What it means to be my boyfriend

Does she make you happy?
She sure does it for me
I never really met her, but when I do
I'll thank her for saving me from you

Not for me

Even though I'm horny and I'm bored
I don't want to be your last resort
When everyone says no you call me
I refuse to live in the face of mediocrity

Do I really want someone like you to want me?
How I wish you had an epiphany
But then again, you were meant to be blind
Maybe you'll start thinking once you're left behind

Forget you knew me
I taught you about infidelity
You drive me nuts with your insecurity
You lack a spine, that's fine, but not for me

Sugarcoat

I've seen all of you go
Down this bumpy road
None of us had foreseen
This wouldn't have a sugarcoat

My future

From lonely struggle to inspiring journey
I wanna go beyond everything that's happening to me
I wanna be great and see the big picture
Is this my time to shine, is this my future?

My pledge

Next year I want everything to be different
I want to be my best friend again
Have values lasting longer than a one night stand

But this is not my first vow or pledge
I wasn't raised to live on the edge
But when I am drunk I always tend to forget

I was raised to be well-mannered
Striving and achieving mattered
I earned everyone's respect for what I did

I worked hard, people said I was smart
Now I am found in every men's bed with an empty heart
My moral history is totally off guard

I must stand up again, raise my fist
Be who I used to be on every A-list
And regain those morals and values my life has missed

Forever friends

I was so happy you said it
Finally after all those years you get it

Finally I've earned that place in your life
The same place I gave you in mine

You said: "I've known you for over 24 years
I don't want to lose this thing we have here

Here in my heart, here in my mind
I know I've let you down sometimes

I just hope you can forgive me and we can move on"
And so I will forgive you for everything you've done

And everything you will ever do
Cause I am your best friend and I love you

I've loved you for 24 years and many more to come
We make mistakes but our friendship will always carry on

Love gone by

I wake up wondering what I've done
I wanna know where I belong
Like I need a man's love to be someone

I humiliate myself over and over again
I won't find the love I need during weekends
Where I feel cool but it's play pretend

I won't win any respect between your sheets
Feeding your and my temporary needs
With alcohol and coke in between

I miss loving him
I miss knowing what to do
I miss being me and you

Then you came by for coffee
I felt your love looking at me
I heard your hope and felt your maybes

You gave me a hug and lifted me up
I wish my feelings would have never stopped
Cause you love me for me no matter what

Discern

Is there a reason why things are happening to me?
Must I first get to my lowest low before I get to be happy?
Must I be buried with self loath and covered in dirt?
Must I be lonely and miserable and long term hurt?

The same things keep happening to me
Is life trying to tell me something I need to learn?
Or is it cause sometimes it's just not my turn?
Or is it something I can't discern?

The last thought

I feel a little sad
You stole the last thought I had
The last bit of hope
The last cloud I was on
Now it's really me on my own

Compassion

Compassion
Makes it hard to teach someone a lesson
You don't want to tell them the truth
If you understand exactly what they do

You know what they're going through
But sometimes you need to be hard
Save them by telling the awful truth
Before they fall apart

But it also works the other way around
When life hits you very hard
And you hope compassion can be found
To mend your broken heart

And then you hurt me by accident
I want to blame you and be mad
But at the same time I understand
Cause I've also made mistakes like that

When you have no notion
You judge and call someone sentimental
Until you experience the same emotion
You understand you've been too judgemental

I had to learn a little lesson
When I choose my words less carefully
They always get back to me
That's how I got compassion

For my lonely girls

The look on your face says you've had enough
Are you gonna die with a past
In which you've known great love
But it didn't last

And you try hard everytime
Is this gonna be the man for life?
Who will be your partner in crime?
Who wants you to be his wife?

After half a year it's all gone
You're left to your own device
Wondering where you went wrong
Cause you tried so many times