KH

Trying to get a grip on the process of the process
But doing so without lossless and costless
All the problems we have at the office with the office

But in the end it doesn't matter
We'll get through the day
Even if I won't type one letter
I'll get paid

A careful enquiry about our true efficiency
You need a comma and a dot so you call me
Is that really why you hired me with my Masters Degree?

But in the end it doesn't matter
My career won't be saved
If I work harder or better
I'm still underpaid

It's become an idiom around here, I quote:
"Thanks for the call about the fax on the email about the note"
I'm dying for a solution or an antidote

But in the end it doesn't matter
If we'll get Process Therapy
I don't believe elsewhere is better
Every office has it's dirty laundry

Small town show

I thought I'd never survive
I thought this small town was my life
That I couldn't leave behind
The life that I had in mind

I thought I'd get bored
If no one knows me at the store
I'd be shopping groceries
With no one saying hi to me

Feeling like a big somebody
With people talking about me
What is it that you wanna say?
You don't like me and my ways?

And then there's the old friends
To cling to during weekends
Getting drunk at the same bar
It defines who we are

Everyone blames the sea
As a reason not to leave
They can't go without the sand
And that's how the community stands

How can I leave everyone that made me?
How can I leave everyone that hates me?
How can I leave everyone I know?
And move over this whole small town show?

But no more common ground
No more the talk of the town
And whenever I come around
I can leave without a sound

You can pass me by without hello
Talk about me and I won't know
Cause I feel freed now I let go
And left the small town show

Pressure free

I would love to be pressure free
From the weight of nothing that bares down on me
How can I assimilate 2000 years
When I can't even deal with everyday fears?

I was close to marriage and I was close to slut
But in the middle of both I said: so what!
Gotta stop thinking like a shrink
Gotta listen to my own promises

Oh wake up you there's nothing more
What do you think you're waiting for?
Wake up you there's nothing more!
But if I'm waiting for nothing
Than what am I doing?
And if I'm waiting for nothing
What am I doing?

Mr. Easy Going?

You want to know
But don't really want to face it
You open yourself up
But can't change the tiniest bit

You ask about it
But don't want a real answer
If you guys fit
Tell me how you intend to keep her?

For Inge

I go where you go

My soul may have flown

But I won't leave you alone

Because your heart is my home


You will be in a daze

Every face will be my face

Every place will be my place

I will never pass this age


Your tears are becoming a sea

I will only have a past

That ended with a car crash

Forever nineteen


(Timo, rust zacht)

What if, maybe, uncertainty

Let go
Of all the no's
This is the yes
Of happiness

No what ifs
Nothing negative
Open up to this
To the positive

No fight
This time it's right
Open your mind
And let the light inside

Feel free
From the maybe's
You will see
Your certainties

D.

And so we meet again today
So many things we need to say
But we shall both learn in time
Your guess is as good as mine

I may not bend your life's ways
Maybe things will remain the same
It's good to see we still flame
We still haven't gone insane

And we know behind those eyes
Are minds lost in disguise
So open your arms and you'll be found
Open your heart and friends come around

The adult

Fate wanted to know if my mind is agile
So it tested my faith for a while
To see if I could stand you so fragile
To see if my emotions are versatile

Now I am big and you are small
I didn't want to see you fall
I need you to be on your pedestal
But now I have to be the adult

Another doctor checking your chart
You cry in the hospital ward
Your body is falling apart
Seeing you grow old is so hard

You don't understand the world today
All that you knew has gone away
I have to stand up for you and explain
I have to hold your hand and lead the way

I always thought you knew it all
But now I am mature and you are small
I can feel you've become emotional
Now daddy's little doll has become an adult

Accept

I must accept the fact
that you'll never accept
No matter how I react
It's never what you expect
Everytime I work hard
for a little of your respect
You'll raise the bar
But if I expect you to know and do better
I'd be just like you are

Dad

I am like you in so many ways
I remember every letter you wrote me
Every word is in my head to this day

Like when you wrote me if I’d ever marry
You would be the absentee
All just because you were so mad at me

I remember all the tears I cried
For not living up to your expectations
I will carry them with me the rest of my life

There were times with bad grades
Teenage behavior and sleepless nights
Do I still have to pay for those mistakes?

She's such a striver said my professor
But you don't know who I am
Cause you said this can't be about my daughter

But you are my mirror in life
I’ve learned to forgive mistakes
Cause resentful is not what I want to be like

You will walk me down the aisle when I marry
Cause if I would hold the past against you
I would do the same thing you did to me

Toen (deel 2)

Psychologie geloven jullie niet in
Praten over mijn gevoel heeft geen zin
Nu zijn jullie soms zo kwetsbaar
Is de wereld zo groot en naar
Nu heb ik mijn eigen grote mensen bestaan
Met hypotheek, crisis en op de tocht staande baan
Ik mis de tijd dat ik dacht:
Jullie hebben de waarheid in pacht
Toen jullie nog op een voetstuk stonden
Dat ik vond dat jullie alles konden
Ik had veel meer rust in mijn kop
Toen ik dacht: zij lossen alles op
Zij kunnen mij altijd redden
Met hun hulp kom ik altijd verder
Het is alweer zo lang geleden
Dat jullie de wereld begrepen
Ik zie jullie ver beneden
Jullie leven in het verleden
Niets is meer zoals toen
Ik moet alles zelf doen
De rollen zijn nu omgedraaid
Ik leg jullie uit hoe de wind waait
Waarom de wolken verdwijnen
Hoe de aarde draait
En wanneer de zon gaat schijnen

De Strijd

Jij bent zelf verantwoordelijk voor wat je doet
Wat ik ook zeg, het is toch nooit goed
Omdat je bij mij niet voor de oplossing zijn moet
Toch reageer je dat op mij af

Je bent changrijnig en veeleisend
Terwijl je zelf helemaal niet zo'n goeie vriendin bent
Je wil mij een spiegel voor houden, terwijl jij jezelf niet kent
Je kan de waarheid waarschijnlijk niet aan en dat noemt mij laf!

Ik ben moe van de strijd
Omdat jij nooit begrijpt
Hoe jij het leven leidt
Dat is niet normaal

Je bent berekenend
Jaloers, wraaklustig en wantrouwend
Zo sta je allom bekend
Ondanks waarschuwingen pikte ik het allemaal

Iedereen vindt je hard
En als het lot je tart
Gedij jij bij gedeelde smart
Dus doe je gemeen tegen mijn vrienden of tegen mij

Ik kan er niet meer tegen
Ik wil je uit mijn leven
Ik begrijp waarom jij alleen bent gebleven
Hechte vriendschap is niets jou, zoals jezelf ook al eens zei

Vergeven

In slaap, in slaap
Ik val in een diepe slaap
Totdat ik niet meer wakker wordt

Kwaad, zo kwaad
Ik ben toch zo kwaad
Waarom komen wij tijd tekort?

Ik wil nog even
Blijven leven
Het is nog lang niet af

Ik zie je staan
Weet wat ik fout heb gedaan
En ik neem het mee in mijn graf

Ik wil nog even
Genieten van dat jij mij hebt vergeven
Oh als ik het mijzelf toch eens vergaf

Queen M

I can't begin to explain your complexity
You have the most complicated personality
You've cost me so much negative energy
Now that you're futher away I can breathe

You are so harsh, you punish those
Those who dare to come a bit close
Those who try to love you the most

Am I your friend because I know you so well?
Because you're afraid of all I could tell?
Cause I've seen you without your hard shell?

Cause I don't feel our friendship is based upon
The same things I've had with others friends for so long
Your whole idea of friendship is wrong

I am tired of your mistrust and suspicion
You question my motives when there's no reason
You punish me for your own bad decisions

I'm tired of proving myself constantly
I am best friends with some friends since I was three
If I was really bad, they wouldn't be

Friendship with you requires me
To show my sincerity constantly
As you force me to prove I am trustworthy

Why can't you trust yourself and believe
That even if I would be a liar you'd still be
And you could still move on and get over me

My mistakes

I needed this time alone
To figure out the world
While I was on my own
I figured out my twirls

I never thought you were the man
Until I stumbled upon some jerks
Cause from falling in love with them
I found out how love works

Where would I be without my mistakes?
I wouldn't be half as human
I guess this is what it takes
To become who I really am