Ostrichism

Where do I keep finding these men?
That will never see, never understand
You go through life with your head stuck in the sand
Your willful ignorance
Will keep you from any chance
To look at yourself the way you are and make amends
You'll never find rest
You'll never pass this life's test
Even if she's a psychologist trying for the best
You don't know what you want
You can't explain how you feel
You tell me that you love me when it ain't real
Do you even know what love is?

Drop dead, gorgeous!

You break my heart at a party
You let me bike home alone on XTC
You let me bike home with more than I could carry
I was alone in your house for hours
I was crying in your bed, I was crying in your shower
I wanted to go home, but the drugs took all my powers
You don't call or sms to ask if I'm okay
You're only concerned if this won't get in your way
If we can still bump into each other and say hey
There are so many things I forget
But I still remember every fucking word you said
The night before I asked where we were at
You reassured my feelings, took away doubts and concerns too
Four days without me, turned out to be a test for you
Why was I with you this weekend if you knew we were through?
I have more emotions than just lust
I swallowed your cum cause I believed in us
Drop dead, gorgeous!

Eddy

I'm not the mad kind
Revenge takes too much effort
But still I'm going out of my mind
Even though it lasted so short

Didn't you say a week ago
This was too beautiful to let go?
And now you're surprised I didn't know
You said you had obviously shown

But you said saturdaynight
We can call this a relationship
Don't you think you're a liar?
Or did you really mean it?

.....

When I sleep, I don't feel
I can dream it's not real
I can pretend it never happened at all
Pretend you never broke my heart
You never stole my soul
And then just let me fall
I had to wake up with you
Cause you were gone all night long
And left me in shock on my own

Eddy again and again and again

You caught my eye
You caught my mind
You stole my life
But it's alright

You took my lungs
I breathe your rhythm
I sing your songs
But it's alright

Your eyes set fire
Your kiss burns
You fill me with desire
And steal my nights

If I don't see you in the daylight
You'll come to me in my dreams at night
Whatever, whenever, you're always on my mind

What's wrong?

Why do you make me hit rock bottom before I can get up again?
I just wanna see you everyday, even if it's just for a minute or ten
Your sms's make it seem like we're in some kind of contest
We have to keep distance otherwise we'll fail the test
I think it's ridiculous
I just wanna come by your house
I promise I won't stick around
But I can't promise we won't get aroused
Just one touch from those lips
Just one touch from those fingertips
Just those arms around my hips
I want you so bad
Tell me what's wrong with that?

Lot of a lot

Me and my man we've got this relationship
Sometimes I miss him so bad it almost makes me sick
I just wanna be in his arms every day and night
His lips so soft, his blue eyes reflect light
All day long I think of his broad shoulders
My heart is racing over 200 miles per hour
He is so hot, he is so well designed
I constantly have only one thought in mind
I can't keep track of my thoughts
He makes me want a lot of a lot

On the brake

If I would tell you how I feel would you get scared?
If I would make you feel what I feel would you feel pressured?
I know you like to take it slow, afraid to lose what we've got
But my love is on the brake, you're not even getting half the lot
All I see is you're battling, way too afraid to lose control
But If I love you more, it doesn't mean I'll swallow you whole
Don't be so scared I'll take over your house or your life
You are stuck in thoughts cause you think it doesn't feel right
But those thoughts have got nothing to do with me
I just wanna love you, I respect you and your boundaries

I also wanna tear down that wall you've been building
When can I show you my real thing?
When can I take it off the brake?
When are you ready for full speed?
Cause I respect you, but I also have some needs
I think you can only see my real me
As soon as you understand yourself more precisely
Cause if you know you, you'll see
Claiming, in need of entertainment, that's not me
All that you misinterpret
I wanna get it out of your head
If you are willing to open up for it
I'll show you the real you bit by bit

Enlighten

I need your attention to feed me
I need nice things to shape my identity
I need identity to be happy
What I really need is to be free

I think therefore I am
Are my thoughts and feelings who I am?
If it's a choice to feel and think what I want?
Am I mean if I think mean thoughts?

Am I sweet if I think sweet thoughts?
Do my thoughts and emotions define me?
Cause if I change my mind I'll be a different person constantly
Can I enlighten myself?

Tell me

I'll make heads turn wherever we are
I'll make love like a porn star
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll teach you all about psychological wealth
Cause I can make you feel cool about yourself
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll cook you the best meals
I'll be so good it's almost surreal
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

You'll love all my best friends
We'll always have fun every weekend
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll take you to places you've never been
I'll show you things you've never seen
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll give you the best music straight from the scene
I'll show you moves and I'll be your dancing queen
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll bring you art and poetry
I'll bring you literature and chemistry
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll blend right in with your friends
Cause you and me match immense
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

Humor and fun, laughing it is
Never a dull moment with Chris
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

I'll never bore you, I'll always adore you
As long as you'll say you adore me too
Tell me you love me, tell me you need me

Capitol E, Capitol C

Don't ever lose the fire in your eyes
When my new lingerie gets you paralyzed
Don't ever lose that look on your face
When I've cooked some amazing tastes
Don't ever lose that smile from ear to ear
When I know exactly what music you like to hear
Don't ever lose those butterflies
When you notice we're like dynamite
Don't ever stop when you're on a roll
Talking about work, the weekend or football
Don't ever stop making me scream your name
When you and me are making the bed flame
Don't ever stop glowing when you realize
Our dance moves are almost synchronized
Don't ever stop feeling happy when you see
Everything simply rhymes between you and me
I love you with a capitol E, you love me with a capitol C

The way you react

Screw your head off your body
Let's look inside
All those thoughts about me
Ain't always right
I never tried to claim you
So I can't claim you any less
You say you can't do what you want to do
And I make your agenda a mess
But honey you can't blame me
Cause you invited me in
And then you feel like you have to entertain me
But I never asked for such a thing
You feel like I call you to account
But you change plans all of a sudden
I just want to know what it's all about
Cause you never asked my opinion
I thought I was in this thing too
But you don't negotiate
Everything is decided by you
And then I end up getting blamed
Cause I don't like the last minute change
It's not an interrogantion
That I just like to have it explained
So next time I can avoid this situation
If you want to do something
Tell me beforehand
So we can do some planning
And you don't have to feel claimed in the end
Why do you get all these feelings?
It's not because of the way I act
I never did any of these things
It's the way you react

My heart is so merry

Some people think others are ignorant and dumb
If they don't know where their feelings are coming from
I find it important to think about how you could be
Especially if you feel bad about hurting me
So if you open up and feel the necessity
It's never dumb, there are no false answers, just you trying to see
So I will give you all the necessary clues
But if you want to know how you work, you must think too
Cause I can't change someone's mental health
You can only do that by yourself
But I will love you all the same if this will never change
I feel like I'll learn from hurt and pain
Quitting is for losers, I must sustain
It's my own choice to feel this way
I know you don't mean half of what you say
I can bend that slap in my face
Cause you have your own feelings misplaced
As soon as I know you better
I can keep myself together
I'll be able to anticipate to it
Cause you say what you want and act the opposite
I interpret your behavior, not your thoughts
Cause you don't understand half of the feelings you've got
Tough times don't last, tough people do
You learn from me, but I most certainly learn from you
Whatever you do, I know it comes from your heart
I'll accept, I'll feel merry, cause I am resilient

Missiles

Defensive
Like I would wanna boss you around
As if
Aggressive
This is where you draw the line
As if

As if I would want to fight
As if I will take over your life
As if you don't have any say in this
As if your vote is being dismissed
As if you think I won't listen to you
As if I won't respect your point of view

Overprotective
Like I won't accept your boundaries
As if
Offensive
I'm here to please you, not to seize you
As if

As if your vote won't count
As if you won't get your word out
As if you won't be heard
As if you don't rule your own world
As if you need to be ready for war
When I haven't said a thing so far

It's not going to be a debate
You can say what you wanna say
You can be what you want to be
You don't have to fire missiles at me
I won't push you around at all
But yet you always feel like you're with your back against the wall

As if I want to be the boss
As if you'll never get your point across
As if you have to be against the grain
Or else I'll be your ball and chain
As if your opinion doesn't matter
As if it needs to be battled

Stop to think and reconsider
I only want this thing to get better
Whatever you do I will respect
Whatever you need I won't object
I'm your lover, not your enemy
Stop firing your missiles at me

See yourself in a bird's eye view
See the way others look at you
Check yourself from above
Battling with love
Relax and let us be as good as we can be
Stop firing missiles at me
Whatever you want, whatever you need
I'll always listen carefully

No remorse anymore

I was the always and secure
So jealousy would never occur
You never really showed me
And I felt you owed me
I thought you had it coming all along
But there's no excuse for my wrong
You thought you had my love
But you didn't know what I was capable of
If everybody's out hunting and you stay home
Do you expect they'll leave me alone?
I just passed the scene of the crime
But you go your way and I go mine
And I will never forget
I was the one who always said
There's no right way of loving
Everybody's got their own thing
You show it your way, I do to
But I never really felt it from you
So I dreamed about others
About kissing them in dark bars
You always left me hanging there
I found the perfect excuse for an affair
Sometimes the male attention is so sickening
I only wished for one thing:
You should have made me feel regret
Told me you love me, dragged me to bed
Come pick me up, showed them I'm yours
But now it's too late for remorse