Never Forget

You weren't really a close friend
But still I feel bad about the way things went
Your lack of information
Lead to a big misinterpretation
This is not what I meant

I still check you on the internet
You're almost close to perfect
I wish I could just say sorry
But it seems you ignore me
Time can make people forgive, but in my case they never forget

Chemistry

A little piece of me has become you.
When you're gone it doesn't know what to do.
You're the enzyme, I'm the protein.
Together we convert into a molecule.

Your chemistry sometimes seems less than mine
If I unbind would we still combine?
Would you draw me near and take charge of time?
Would you take charge of me before I unwind?

Waiting again

You say you want to be with me.
But you act like it doesn't matter what I do.
Other boyfriends said I made them happy.
You're just happy when I don't talk about the future.

You forget I had a life before you.
I don't want to go back but I can if I have to.
My situation is not financially stable.
But I don't need much money if I am willing and able

Hey mister, it's an honor to be with me.
I guess you forgot that somewhere along the way.
I praise you all the time, when do you praise me?
Maybe I shouldn't wait for that day.

11th hour

You mumble, you arch your back.
When in a bad mood I say: cut the slack.
You're stubborn when you're supposed to fight.
These things don't get well by themselves overnight.

I never see a clenched fist.
I never see willpower.
I never see you go for it.
And now is the 11th hour.

Words

I don't wanna be the nagging woman.
But you never take initiative.
And I want to build my life around you.
Standing still is not my way to live.

I wanna know every mold on your body.
I wanna be like husband and wife.
I wanna be your backbone, emotionally.
But you don't wanna talk about that kind of life.

You get mad about words.
House, marriage, kids.
I like to talk about my future.
And you should too, if you want to be in it.

How long can I hold my breath?
You're never ready, not even at twenty-seven.
When are you ever gonna take the first step?
Or will you just wait until I drag you along?

I always dream what if, what if,
You would take the initiative.
Be a man and stand for something.
But I always realize I am only dreaming.

Watch clouds pass by

Let me explain the rules again:
It's all or nothing, you can't do it a little bit.
You can't say you want to spend the rest of your life with me,
and then act like you don't really want it.

Let me explain the rules again:
You do it, or you don't, can't do it slightly.
You say you want to marry, then you don't.
You say you want to buy a house, then you won't.

I can't bring all the fireworks by myself.
Build the castles in the sky.
Then to be left on the shelf,
And only get to watch the clouds pass by.

Let me explain the rules again:
Either you're in, or you're not.
You can't say you want it very bad,
But behave like you don't care a lot.

Let me explain the rules again:
It's all or nothing, can't do it partly.
You can't say maybe we'll buy a house
And the next day say you don't want it as bad as me

Four years and four months: we're just amateurs
But with every step I take you're not sure
Are you unwilling or unable to mature?
Is this what I've been waiting for?

You know

When push comes to shove.
You never shove.
You just get mad about it.
Just when you think it's tough
and you've had enough.
That's usually when it's only getting started.

The house

The more I want it,
the less you do.
The more I need it,
the less you want to.

The faster I run,
the more you stay behind.
The more I care,
the less you mind.

You always give up at the first gunshot.
When no one has been hit.
Well tell me how we'll ever be together?
If you're not willing to fight for it.

Today you want it,
tomorrow you're not sure.
You sent me hunting,
after wards you don't want the prey anymore.

You're getting tired of your room and mine.
You ruin my weekend with your mood.
Solutions take a lot of time.
But if I'm the only one trying, I doubt if I should.

If I say I doubt us, you're mad for a week.
Yet you feel allowed to say things just as bad:
"You want to live together more than I do"
I guess that makes this week my week to be mad.

11:59 PM

I'm here, and you're there
Mentally, spatially
Now is the time to show you care
And you really want to be with me

Waiting for you makes it clear
Later has already started
Later is already here
Tomorrow is not for faint-hearted
And today will never come back.

I'm fighting this battle alone
Or so it seems
I don't hear any frustration on the phone
Your mother still wishes you sweet dreams

Waiting for you is all I do
Later has already come
Later is now for me and you
There's no time for speaking in tongues
Cause today will never come back

Please don't make me wait.
The future is today.

Questions

I get so tired of doing nothing
I get so tired of thinking
I wish I knew where I am heading
The only way to find out is by waiting

I’m just a drop of water in the ocean,
I’m just a blade of grass in the field,
I’m the organism with the most emotions,
So I’m able to think about how I feel.

Don’t know if there’s a God, wonder why I live
I search for a reason to take and to give
I try to put everything in perspective
And I like to think my actions are affirmative

Too much time to think, but too little to find out
What my life in this world is all about
I can’t save the world from it’s destiny
I doubt if answers are the answer
If I’m just a grain of sand on the bottom of the sea
Would I be any different in the desert?

Sometimes it’s just too much to abide
And so nice to narrow my mind
And I wish I would bump into John Mayer that night,
So I can ask if Jessica Simpson has any cellulite

Opinionated

I've been carelessly speaking my mind
Been a little arrogant sometimes
Just because I got irritated
But I was way too opinionated

I can't say what I think and expect
That nobody will object
Or that I'm always right
I better sleep on things a night

I speak my mind in a blurt
But when most of my words hurt
They come back to me eventually
I just have to live and learn

Big Bore

How long must I hold my breath?
How long before I get what I want to get?
Tell me something I don't allready know
You're not the first to say you love me so

There’s nothing we haven’t done before
We’re in the middle of a big bore
Can’t remember the last time I got thrilled
Cause we’re only standing still

How far must I go, ‘till I know,
What’s at the other end of the rainbow?
How long must I climb, ‘till I find,
What I should have had for a long time

My pursuit of happiness,
Seems so hollow and pointless.
The closer I get, the further away it is
How long, ‘till I can really start my life?

Temporary friends

All I've got from those days
Is a smile and a lighter
I wish you the best, you really need it
You're too driven by desire
And I feed it

All that's left are moments
Moments of raging fire
You'll never get much higher
You're not really a fighter
You're just in it for the moment

It's good that it didn't last
I was aware what it meant
You really need the good luck I wish you
You've got more temporary friends
Who'll take you down too.

Partner in crime

I was the one who always said "I know what forever is like"
But now I know I lied
And I found a partner in crime

I was the one who had always already seen the light
But I wasn't right
I have been fooling my own mind

I was the one who always claimed for better or for worse times
But I had no clue what worse is like
Or when the feeling's gone over night.

Endorphines

Everything is boring
You and me, this country
Even the next big thing

The times are changing
But eventually nothing's new to me
It's just history repeating

Is there anything left to explore?
Care less, drink more
Trying to make life more hardcore

It's been so long since
My life was ruled by endorphins
And my heart beat pure adrenaline

I feel a little bitter
Let down by my neurotransmitters
Like I threw out all pleasures with the litter

I need more chemicals
Nine to five ain't my kind of life
I gotta grab life by the balls