An awesome ride

Clouds are dreams passing by

You let the sunshine fill your eyes

When you’re on an awesome ride

 

In an air-conditioning breeze

35 degrees in sweaty tees

The office far away from me

 

Round the corner, hold on tight

Colorful graffiti to the right

This city is mine tonight

 

I wish I could go back in time somehow

Shinjuku station, Bia hoi, Plaza Grau,

Anything to get me out of now

 

But all I can do is stare outside

Look at clouds passing by

And dream about an awesome ride

Forever asleep

Asleep, asleep
You fall asleep
You're never waking up
I wish I could accept it
But I'm too young for you to give up

There's so much love and beauty yet to come
You are aware
But what about this fight for life
You can no longer bear?

Success, mistakes
Great jobs, heartaches
When I go down or I rise up
I will never get to know
If you will like me when I'm all grown up

There's so much life and learning yet to come
I am aware
I have to find the strength in me
Cause you can not be there

Asleep, asleep
You fall asleep
You're never waking up
I hope I can proceed to be
All you longed for me when I'm grown up

And when your soul is set free
And one day you look at me
I hope you like what you see

And when I turn out deadbeat
When I have to face defeat
Who will love me regardlessly?

Asleep, asleep
You fall asleep
You're never waking up

Now I know the truth
And must except this is my youth
I've got my heart on my sleeve
Is it so hard to just love me?

But it's not about me
It's about you
As it will always be
Cause that's the truth

I can't let you have control
Cause then you'll make me drown
I can't fill the hole in your soul
I can't fill up where life let you down

I've found what you're looking for
I've got everlasting true love
Despite all you've put me through
Something I am capable of

Fired

Suddenly I stood outside
With a box of papers and what was left of my pride
For months I dreamed of a glorious goodbye
I would give you all the finger and see tears coming to your eyes
Years of disrespect and then you'd realize

Now I'm fired and I've learned
I don't feel any need to watch you burn
It's a waste of my energy and I've learned
Chances are often disguised as hard work
So whenever I want it to it can be my turn

Grey

Grey, today I'm grey
I can be angry and sad
But I've already been through that

Nothing that I do will change the situation
No thought I have will be a liberation
So I liberate myself from thoughts

Nothing I feel will change a thing
So it's better to have no feeling
And to just be grey

I hear your sheer cries
Don't ask me your needs
Try looking inside

Dad

If I cry, I have to admit

I still love you a little bit

Even though you hurt my life

And I don’t want you in it

Is it selfish I can’t stand

To see you sick and hold your hand

I wanna run away as fast as I can

This doesn’t fit in my plans

Is it wrong that I am angry

Cause you’re not allowed to need me

But I also feel guilty

If I treat you like you treat me

Am I allowed to feel sad

For all the times I wished you were dead

Can I still be mad

For all the times you weren’t there?

Later is already here

You give an inch, I want a mile

Moderate is not my style

I want it now, you want it later

I am not a waiter

You take time, I keep a steady pace

I want to get to that place

That place where everything is assured

Where I can predict most of my future

I wanna know if I can make a kid

The last thing on my bucketlist

No more uncertainty

No more waiting impatiently 

Berry

Het is net alsof je jarenlang in mijn hoofd hebt kunnen kijken
zodat je op alles waar ik over droomde zou lijken

It's like you've always been able to look inside my head
so you knew everything I dreamed of, and could look just like that

One foot out the door

So you've got new friends and forget about me
They're jobless addicts who suck you dry
I ask you what they do to make you happy
You claim I'm too judgmental with my perfect life

You go ahead and do as you please
But don't include me
I don't want to hear about it, let me be
I want to be care free

What am I doing this for?
I'm here, but I've got one foot out the door
I getting too old for this shit, life is too short

So you're aging with complaints
The glass is always half empty
You need me for love and I'm claimed
I'm exhausted from trying to make you see


You go ahead and do as you please
But don't include me
I don't want to hear about it, let me be
I want to be care free

What am I doing this for?
I'm here, but I've got one foot out the door
I getting too old for this shit, life is too short

Nn

Who am I, to need you when I'm down?
But where are you, when I need you around?
The choice is yours and I feel and see
I can't force you into my needs

And I try less black and white
But I don't see you fight
It doesn't feel like you really try
It doesn't seem you care or cry

My dear body

Oh my dear body what's going on?
Haven't I been good for you al along?
Didn't I make sure you could be strong?
But maybe you're not

I lie awake with pain that won't go
The doctor says it's too soon to know
I have to wait and see how it goes
I drive myself insane with my thoughts

A beginner's guide to relationships

It took a while to see you were on my side
You were always right
But your words damaged my pride

It was a compliment in disguise
When you realized
I deserved a better guy

You're not that far away from psychology
You think I know me
But I was blinded by your XTC

You understood more than I knew
You saw straight through
The endless nights had me fooled

Cause you wake up and you're in bed
With someone who is too different
I read books, you mountainbike in the weekend

My compliments
You were right in the end
And brought me closer to my true boyfriend

I hope you have found a girl
Who completes your world
Cause you deserve her

What to do?

It’s been taken care of

It’s been swept under the rug

No one really knows this

Except those left of us

 

Should we remain silent

No talking allowed

Cause if we start a riot

We’ll all be out

 

I want to speak up

But I know if I’ll try

It won’t change a thing

You’ll just hang me out to dry

If you would have been honest

Straight to my face

I would have had the chance

To leave with grace


But I guess for now

I'll wait

Lego

From a distance it seems so simple
Like a floor filled with Lego
I'll lift you up and put you down
Right where I think you should go

It never works when I explain
You feel offended and upset
You start to act against the grain
I wonder how far you'll ever get

How far will get with the mirror
You act like you know best
Behind that is someone so insecure
Will you ever see yourself like all the rest?

Cause if you'd see that, you'd know
You'd be happy not upset
You would know where to go
You'd know your place amongst the Lego

KH

Trying to get a grip on the process of the process
But doing so without lossless and costless
All the problems we have at the office with the office

But in the end it doesn't matter
We'll get through the day
Even if I won't type one letter
I'll get paid

A careful enquiry about our true efficiency
You need a comma and a dot so you call me
Is that really why you hired me with my Masters Degree?

But in the end it doesn't matter
My career won't be saved
If I work harder or better
I'm still underpaid

It's become an idiom around here, I quote:
"Thanks for the call about the fax on the email about the note"
I'm dying for a solution or an antidote

But in the end it doesn't matter
If we'll get Process Therapy
I don't believe elsewhere is better
Every office has it's dirty laundry

Small town show

I thought I'd never survive
I thought this small town was my life
That I couldn't leave behind
The life that I had in mind

I thought I'd get bored
If no one knows me at the store
I'd be shopping groceries
With no one saying hi to me

Feeling like a big somebody
With people talking about me
What is it that you wanna say?
You don't like me and my ways?

And then there's the old friends
To cling to during weekends
Getting drunk at the same bar
It defines who we are

Everyone blames the sea
As a reason not to leave
They can't go without the sand
And that's how the community stands

How can I leave everyone that made me?
How can I leave everyone that hates me?
How can I leave everyone I know?
And move over this whole small town show?

But no more common ground
No more the talk of the town
And whenever I come around
I can leave without a sound

You can pass me by without hello
Talk about me and I won't know
Cause I feel freed now I let go
And left the small town show

Pressure free

I would love to be pressure free
From the weight of nothing that bares down on me
How can I assimilate 2000 years
When I can't even deal with everyday fears?

I was close to marriage and I was close to slut
But in the middle of both I said: so what!
Gotta stop thinking like a shrink
Gotta listen to my own promises

Oh wake up you there's nothing more
What do you think you're waiting for?
Wake up you there's nothing more!
But if I'm waiting for nothing
Than what am I doing?
And if I'm waiting for nothing
What am I doing?

Mr. Easy Going?

You want to know
But don't really want to face it
You open yourself up
But can't change the tiniest bit

You ask about it
But don't want a real answer
If you guys fit
Tell me how you intend to keep her?

For Inge

I go where you go

My soul may have flown

But I won't leave you alone

Because your heart is my home


You will be in a daze

Every face will be my face

Every place will be my place

I will never pass this age


Your tears are becoming a sea

I will only have a past

That ended with a car crash

Forever nineteen


(Timo, rust zacht)

What if, maybe, uncertainty

Let go
Of all the no's
This is the yes
Of happiness

No what ifs
Nothing negative
Open up to this
To the positive

No fight
This time it's right
Open your mind
And let the light inside

Feel free
From the maybe's
You will see
Your certainties